A Home I Couldn’t Live In

Nocturne Aria Tech, cinematic melodic techno, deep progressive house, dark sensual late-night atmosphere, romantic tension, emotional female lead vocal, female vocals only, layered all-female soprano and alto choir harmonies, ethereal female choir hums, intimate lonely violin lead, atmospheric synth pads, lush orchestral strings, deep rolling bassline, cinematic bass energy, slow emotional build, no drums in the intro, drums enter gradually, sensual nocturnal groove, elegant dramatic production, longing, love, desire, heartbreak, mystery, powerful final drop, epic emotional climax, widescreen cinematic electronic sound, no male vocals [Intro] Female vocals only, Atmospheric synth pads, Distant orchestral strings, Soft cinematic ambience, A lonely violin enters slowly, intimate and emotional, Ethereal all-female choir hums softly in the background, No drums at first, Build longing, romance, sensuality, and need in the night, [Build] Deep rolling bassline enters slowly, Layered fem

V5.5

Blue light on the ceiling
Morning at the glass
I was lying close beside you
Feeling oceans in the gap

You were quiet as a coastline
With your mind beyond the room
I kept reaching for your heartbeat
But it never reached back soon

I loved you with devotion
Soft hands, open door
Made a chapel from your silence
Then kept kneeling on the floor

I did not need forever
Written in the sky
I just wanted you to see me
Standing in the light

You were the love of my life
But your heart was never mine
I kept trying to bloom
Where there was no sunlight

I did not leave because I stopped loving
I left because I was fading
You were a home I could not live in
And I was dying trying to stay there

Invisible to you
Invisible to you
I was calling from the room
But I never reached you

Invisible to you
Invisible to you
I loved you in the dark
But I had to choose me too

Your hands were almost gentle
Your voice was almost near
But almost is a country
Where I lived for one long year

I learned the shape of waiting
The weight of being kind
How to smile across the table
While disappearing in your eyes

There were nights I watched you breathing
Like a prayer I could not keep
Loving you felt holy
But it cost me too much peace

And I know you never meant it
Maybe that is the saddest part
Some hearts are not cruel
They are just never where you are

You were the love of my life
But your heart was never mine
I kept trying to bloom
Where there was no sunlight

I did not leave because I stopped loving
I left because I was fading
You were a home I could not live in
And I was dying trying to stay there

Invisible to you
Invisible to you
I was calling from the room
But I never reached you

Invisible to you
Invisible to you
I loved you in the dark
But I had to choose me too

I wanted to be seen
Without begging for your eyes
Wanted to be heard
Without swallowing my cries

Wanted to be chosen
In the ordinary way
Like a name you say softly
At the ending of the day

But love should not feel lonely
When the person is lying close
And I became a shadow
Trying not to need a soul

So I kissed the dream goodbye
With my whole heart in my hands
Some exits are not endings
They are how a woman stands

I was not angry when I left
I was breaking into light
Still loving who you were
But no longer losing mine

You were the love of my life
But your heart was never mine
I kept trying to bloom
Where there was no sunlight

I did not leave because I stopped loving
I left because I was fading
You were a home I could not live in
And I was dying trying to stay there

You were the love of my life
But I am still part of mine
I walked out of the dark
Before it swallowed mine

I did not leave because I stopped loving
I left because I had to
You were a home I could not live in
But I loved you
I loved you
I loved you

Female choir only.
Soft violin fading.

Invisible to you
But I see me now
I see me now
I see me now

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Blue light on the ceiling Morning at the glass I was lying close beside you Feeling oceans in the gap You were quiet as a coastline With your mind beyond the room I kept reaching for your heartbeat But it never reached back soon I loved you with devotion Soft hands, open door Made a chapel from your silence Then kept kneeling on the floor I did not need forever Written in the sky I just wanted you to see me Standing in the light You were the love of my life But your heart was never mine I kept trying to bloom Where there was no sunlight I did not leave because I stopped loving I left because I was fading You were a home I could not live in And I was dying trying to stay there Invisible to you Invisible to you I was calling from the room But I never reached you Invisible to you Invisible to you I loved you in the dark But I had to choose me too Your hands were almost gentle Your voice was almost near But almost is a country Where I lived for one long year I learned the shape of waiting The weight of being kind How to smile across the table While disappearing in your eyes There were nights I watched you breathing Like a prayer I could not keep Loving you felt holy But it cost me too much peace And I know you never meant it Maybe that is the saddest part Some hearts are not cruel They are just never where you are You were the love of my life But your heart was never mine I kept trying to bloom Where there was no sunlight I did not leave because I stopped loving I left because I was fading You were a home I could not live in And I was dying trying to stay there Invisible to you Invisible to you I was calling from the room But I never reached you Invisible to you Invisible to you I loved you in the dark But I had to choose me too I wanted to be seen Without begging for your eyes Wanted to be heard Without swallowing my cries Wanted to be chosen In the ordinary way Like a name you say softly At the ending of the day But love should not feel lonely When the person is lying close And I became a shadow Trying not to need a soul So I kissed the dream goodbye With my whole heart in my hands Some exits are not endings They are how a woman stands I was not angry when I left I was breaking into light Still loving who you were But no longer losing mine You were the love of my life But your heart was never mine I kept trying to bloom Where there was no sunlight I did not leave because I stopped loving I left because I was fading You were a home I could not live in And I was dying trying to stay there You were the love of my life But I am still part of mine I walked out of the dark Before it swallowed mine I did not leave because I stopped loving I left because I had to You were a home I could not live in But I loved you I loved you I loved you Female choir only. Soft violin fading. Invisible to you But I see me now I see me now I see me now

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