Verse 1 I’d like to heal, but I’m not, I’m just dealing with the days Putting bandages on moments That keep breaking the same way They say time makes it lighter But it only learns my name I wake up tired of carrying What never seems to change Pre-Chorus I know hate isn’t healing I know bitterness stays But I’m sick of pretending That I’m fine with the pain Chorus I’m not healing, I’m dealing, Just surviving the night Holding cracks in my heart So they don’t split me in half Is it wrong that I’m angry? Is it wrong that I feel? If I’m still standing here breathing Maybe dealing is still real Verse 2 Everyone says “let it go” Like it’s easy somehow But the past keeps on knocking And I keep answering now I don’t want to be broken I don’t want to be cold I just want one soft moment Where I don’t feel this old Pre-Chorus I know healing’s a process Not a switch I can flip But I’m tired of being strong When I’m barely equipped Chorus I’m not healing, I’m dealing, Just doing my best Dragging hope like a whisper Through the weight in my chest I hate everything lately, Yeah, I know that’s not right But I’m sick of dealing with pain That outlives every night Bridge Maybe healing isn’t pretty Maybe it’s slow and uneven Maybe it starts with admitting I’m still hurt, but still breathing If I ask for more light Doesn’t mean I’ve failed It just means I’m human Learning how to heal Final Chorus I want healing in my life, yeah, More than just getting through More than numb, more than coping More than what I’m used to I’m still dealing, still trying, Still here, still real And maybe that’s the first step On the way to healing Outro I’d like to heal… And maybe someday, I will.
