Memory Pills

[Verse 1] Orange bottle on the nightstand. Little label with my name, spelled wrong. Doctor says, it helps me hold on, To what’s already almost gone. Took one with my cold black coffee - Bitter taste sitting on my tongue. Photographs flicker in my mind now: Out of order, Out of focus, Half-strung... [Chorus] Memory pills. Trying to catch what’s slipping. Hold a life in a capsule Still. Every swallow feels like wishing If I remember every moment. Do I ever heal? Or am I stuck here in this heartbeat, Living under memory pills. [instrumental loss] [Verse 2] I see my mother in the doorway, Young again in her Sunday dress. Hear my brother laughing by the staircase. Then it jumps, Like a scratched cassette. Some days I’m drowning in the details: Every word, Every fight, Every call... Other nights it’s just a cold blank ceiling And a name, On the tip of my tongue, That won’t fall. [Chorus] [Bridge] What if I let some of it fade? Let the colors wash away? Would I lose myself Or finally find a little space? Two pills left in the blister pack. Thumb shakes when I bend it back. Do I chase the ghost Or learn to live with what I lack? [slight breakdown] [Chorus] [End]