[Verse 1] Started with attention, thought it filled what I lacked Every empty conversation pulled me further off track Thought another body meant I finally had worth Whole time I was diggin’ me a six-foot earth Kept runnin’ from the silence, never sat with the pain Every dopamine hit just reset my chains Smile on my face, but my spirit looked sick Couldn’t build a future when I lived for a fix I hurt good women that was tryna hold me down Watched real love leave while I chased another town Always said tomorrow I’d become a better man Then tomorrow came around… same blood on my hands [Pre-Chorus] Every mirror got a story that I hate to replay Every promise that I made, I let it die yesterday If freedom got a price, then I know what it cost I kept countin’ every win while my soul got lost [Chorus] My addiction wore my face, now I barely know my name Built a house out of pleasure, watched it burn up in the flames I was searchin’ for connection in places love don’t live Now I’m carryin’ regrets that forgiveness gotta lift Temporary highs… permanent scars Couldn’t outrun myself no matter how far Now I’m cryin’ to God with my hands to the sky ’Cause this addiction almost stole my whole life [Verse 2] I ain’t blamin’ anybody, I was makin’ every choice Couldn’t hear conviction ‘cause temptation louder than His voice Lost respect, lost trust, almost lost my career Every bad decision started whisperin’ in my ear People see the headlines, they don’t know the fight Don’t know how addiction turns the daytime into night Don’t know how ashamed you feel after it fades When you’re left alone with the mess that you made Had to kill excuses, had to face the man inside Couldn’t heal a wound if I kept feedin’ it with lies Healing ain’t a moment, it’s a battle every day Some days I feel strong… some days I gotta pray [Bridge] God, don’t let this be the ending of me Teach me how to walk in what You wanted me to be If I ever build again, let it stand on truth Not another counterfeit pretending to be proof I don’t want another mask I don’t want another lie I just wanna sleep in peace Without runnin’ from my mind [Final Chorus] My addiction wore my face, now I’m takin’ it back Every broken piece of me, Lord, put it back intact I’m done chasin’ shadows that disappear at dawn I’d rather walk with scars than keep pretending I’m strong Temporary highs… they almost took my soul But grace can rebuild what addiction stole I’m still standin’ here, even after all this pain If God ain’t gave up on me… I can change. [Outro] This ain’t a victory song… It’s the first honest one. And maybe honesty… Is where freedom begins.
