Ignoring my nourishment Like I buried encouragement I continue enduring It And say that im flourishing Made A home out of punishment But refusing to furnish it Cause when ive had enough of this I'll consider burning it But when I talk to myself I know I'll decide it was worth it foot in my mouth got a taste for defeat feels like there's hands on my throat Cause I cant even speak But ill talk to myself Till i'm blue in the cheeks Mutilated and muted by mental discomfort Maybe I'll fight it but odds are i'll suffer I held on the tightest and tried to discover Whether im stupid or am I just stubborn Either I'm fighting it or I let it take over Take the path of enlightenment or refuse to be sober I can't have my cake and eat it too But If I can bake a cake then why not two? I'm used to breaking eggs for no good use But breaking bread seems to be too obtuse Scrambling my mind like there's no use Now im pacing back and forth from here to timbuktu I shake my head cause I'm confused But then again I paid my dues And I remember when I paid them too Now the only one I'm questioning is you So who are you to come and question me Speaking out your ass like you know a damn thing I really dont remember even asking So sit your ass down and shut your mouth when im talking So let me Hide my pain Till I hydroplane Live in shame Cause I stay the same Night or day I find a way to feel at peace Find a fee to fight or flee Fly to sea or find a seat Finally ill feel complete Won't Listen to the hypocrites I see It takes a lot of grit to grin with all your teeth But I'm seeing through the shit you tried to spew at me Stupidly I tried to move on suitably Soon to be ill have a suit on me Cause Almost Certainly they'll throw a suit at me For speaking every stupid thing I think undoubtedly I don't agree It dawned on me Id die to be A guy With no Anxieties But i battle with the doubt inside of me feeling like it's sodomy Guess i really oughta be vocalizing audibly Yet instead I'm writing these Letters to myself Put it on a page Then forget it on a shelf Let out all my rage Like I didn't write it will But I guess that it's okay Ill keep talking to myself Ill keep walking away with a limp in my step Say im okay till the I encounter the next Page in the book of my life Right till the end of my life Write to myself Till I sink in my ship Talk to myself till i'm blue in the lips Feel like im rude from the risks I might just bleed from my wrists Write about things that I miss Talk about things that I think Think about dreams that I had Drink I when I start to get mad Write about how much I hate it Then I do nothing to change it I should be humiliated Cause I'm faced with the fact that im faceless Claim im okay when I know that it's baseless Thats Write and erase it Talk to myself like a therapy task Sharpen my brain like I write with an axs Then i remember that nobody asked So I continue to talk to myself But nobody knows me More than I know me myself
