Want the win, want the increase Want the prayer with the quick receipt Numbers rise, call it favor Numbers fall, “Did He forget me?” Want Him close, but not too close Love the comfort, dodge the cost Call Him Lord, but keep the veto Any time His answer’s “no” Want Him taking my side When I already drew the line Want the truth, but truth gets harder When His truth disagrees with mine Grace is great when grace feels easy Love is good when love won’t press me Want a Savior who can save me Without touching what I’m protecting Still want Him When the answer comes back no? Still want Him When He touches what you won’t let go? No open door No bigger check No sign that says you’re next If none of what you wanted comes And all you have is Jesus... Still want Him? What about me? Good motive, wrong direction Still expected His protection Made the call, then asked Him after “Put Your name on this and bless it” Know the verses Know the wording Know exactly where to point Real good reading everybody else Real slow when the heart is mine Know the rule Know who broke it Know the clip that proves the point Can go forensic on somebody’s failure Barely question what I want Count the details, miss the mercy Say I’m right and call that worthy Justice, mercy, faithfulness Can disappear when I need certainty So if He checks me, let Him If He cuts through it, let it hit I don’t need a Jesus Who keeps cosigning my script He can hold mercy And still call it what it is He can tell me truth And never love me less Holy enough to confront me Kind enough to stay I don’t want a Jesus I can edit to my taste Not my cosign Not my cover Not the name I use To get what I want from another Not my proof That every choice was right If He is Lord He gets to interrupt my life Still want Him When the answer comes back no? Still want Him When He touches what you won’t let go? No open door No bigger check No sign that says you’re next I was looking for what He could do Now even if none of that comes... I still want Him Not just what He gives Him
