Wonder how life could've been different if I'd left it alone from the start, if I had enough sense to quit Wonder how life could've been different if I'd told the truth that first time I slipped, instead of feeding it I let one bad night turn into my routine I kept calling it harmless while it wrecked everything in me If I could go back, I'd stop at the first yes I'd call myself what I was: a liar to my own face Every day I feel it, every night I circle the same old circuit Same phone, same sink, same bedroom, same lie, same old sermon If I could go back, I'd leave that habit at the gate I'd take the longer road home, I'd learn a different shape But I'm still here, awake too late, picking at what I bruised Wonder how life could've been different if I'd never touched it [Chorus] If I'd left it alone, left it alone Maybe I'd still hear your key in the front door roll If I'd left it alone, left it alone Maybe I wouldn't be here with this hole in my skull Now I'm stuck in the mess I made Pacing the kitchen, trying to shake these hands If I'd left it alone, left it alone Maybe I'd still be singing with a crowd that stayed [Bridge] I lost her calls to voicemail by the sink at 2 a.m. Lost Sunday coffee, lost the job, lost sleep again Lost the way my mom still looks at me when I walk in Like she's trying not to ask why I won't meet her eyes I lost my keys, my record, my word, my steady hands Lost whole weeks I can't get back no matter how I scan And I hate that I know exactly where I first gave in Second verse, first time it happened, I was sitting on the edge of my bed Thumb on a bottle cap, staring at the floorboards, nothing left unsaid Thought one hit, one night, one little fix, then I'd be done Didn’t know how fast a small mistake could learn to run Next morning, same sweatshirt, cold coffee, gray light in the blinds Trying to act like I was fine while you were still half in my mind That was the first slip, the first taste, the first time it got a name And ever since, I’ve been looking back at the moment I let it stain [Chorus] If I'd left it alone, left it alone Maybe I'd still hear your key in the front door roll If I'd left it alone, left it alone Maybe I wouldn't be here with this hole in my skull Now I'm stuck in the mess I made Pacing the kitchen, trying to shake these hands If I'd left it alone, left it alone Maybe I'd still be singing with a crowd that stayed [Outro] Left it alone. That's the whole damn answer. If I'd left it alone from the start, maybe I'd still know who I was.
