(Verse 1) I got scars that still speak In the middle of the night when I can’t sleep Every raised voice sounds like goodbye Every silence feels like another lie You don’t see the memories I fight How one small thing can steal the light I’ve had my words twisted before Watched trust bleed out across the floor (Pre-Chorus) And I know I don’t always handle it right Sometimes my pain gets too loud to hide But I swear I’m not proud of every reaction I’m just surviving old damage and distractions (Chorus) I’m trying God, I’m trying To quiet the chaos screaming inside me I know my heart can turn storms into waves When all I wanna do is feel safe Yeah I stumble, yeah I break Sometimes my fears get in the way But every single day I fight To be someone better than last night I’m human, bruised, but still surviving And no matter what— I’m trying (Verse 2) Past situations left cracks in me Now every shadow feels like history When messages disappear and stories change It pulls me back into the pain And I hate the version fear creates The one that spirals, hesitates But there’s a war inside my mind Between who I was and who I’m trying to find (Pre-Chorus) I know my emotions run deep and wild Like a wounded heart trapped inside a child But I’m learning slowly how to breathe through fire Instead of letting it pull me under (Chorus) I’m trying God, I’m trying To quiet the chaos screaming inside me I know my heart can turn storms into waves When all I wanna do is feel safe Yeah I stumble, yeah I break Sometimes my fears get in the way But every single day I fight To be someone better than last night I’m human, bruised, but still surviving And no matter what— I’m trying (Bridge) Maybe healing ain’t a straight line road Maybe some wounds heal slow But don’t mistake my hurt for not caring Don’t mistake my fear for not trying (Final Chorus) ’Cause I’m trying Even when it’s exhausting Trying to carry all this weight without falling And maybe I’ll never be perfect, I know But I refuse to let this pain be all I hold So if you see me fighting tears tonight Just know I’m still learning how to be alright One step, one breath, one day at a time Yeah… I’m trying
