I threw my voice down the hallway It never came back Still it knew my shape Still it hit the dark I kept receipts from nights That did not owe me proof A bus ticket soaked soft In the sleeve of my coat Prayers in my jacket Folded until they split Names I never sent Still warm from my fist I was not waiting for a miracle Just breath on the glass One little blur to prove I had been here But the room stayed blank And the sky stayed closed So I learned to sing Where the answer should go If nobody hears it Does it still make a sound If nobody keeps it Can it still be found I put my hands out Into the black Empty palms open No pulling back I gave it all and got nothing back Still I threw my heart into the black No reply, no reward, no sign But it was mine It was mine Nothing back Doesn't mean nothing mattered I was a match in the rain Still burning after I gave it all and got nothing back And I still sang after that Nothing back Nothing back I still sang after that Nothing back Nothing back I still sang after that I made a chapel out of bus stops Lit by passing cars Asked the dirty window If it knew my scars Every broken feeling Had a seat beside my ribs Every unanswered prayer Kept splinters in my skin Someone said let go Like letting go is clean Like the thing you drop Does not leave a bruise But I carried all the fragments Till they learned to shine Not because they healed me Because they were mine If nobody answers I answer with breath If nobody holds it I hold what is left I put my hands out Into the black Empty palms shaking No pulling back I gave it all and got nothing back Still I threw my heart into the black No reply, no reward, no sign But it was mine It was mine Nothing back Doesn't mean nothing mattered I was a match in the rain Still burning after I gave it all and got nothing back And I still sang after that Even if it brings me nothing Even if I never become I will not call my feeling wasted Just because no answer comes A prayer can break in silence And still leave dust of light A song can miss one window And still survive the night I did not throw my heart away I threw it where I could see That the dark was not empty It was holding space for me Nothing back But my pulse came louder Nothing back But my hands stayed open Nothing back But the dark kept witness Nothing back But I was not broken I gave it all and got nothing back Still I threw my heart into the black No reply, no reward, no sign But it was mine It was mine Nothing back Doesn't mean nothing mattered I was a match in the rain Still burning after I gave it all and got nothing back I gave it all and I kept my voice Nothing back Could not make me vanish Nothing back Could not take what happened I gave it all and got nothing back And I still sang after that I threw my voice down the hallway It never came back Still it knew my shape Still I sang after that
