Inside of You

I was not made with open arms I was not named with joy I grew where gentle voices stopped Where every reaching hand was dropped The house had walls, but not a heart I learned to live in missing parts Then somewhere deep in wanting’s ache A stranger kind of dream would wake A living room beneath the skin A place where I could start again Not gone Not lost Just held at last Inside of you I learn to breathe A hidden life A quiet seed Inside of you The hurt comes loose I am not waste I am not use Hold me down Hold me through Let me live Inside of you I never asked to be adored Like something polished and restored I only wanted one safe place A pulse, a breath, a closing space If love can hold what life refused If hunger heals what hands abused Then let your body answer true And make a home inside of you Not wrong Not small Just safe to fall Inside of you I learn to breathe A hidden life A quiet seed Inside of you The hurt comes loose I am not waste I am not use Hold me down Hold me through Let me live Inside of you Do not call it weakness if I kneel Do not call it sickness if I heal Some people pray to stars above I found a mouth that sounds like love Let the shame slide off my tongue Let the dirty hymn be sung If your body wants the truth Open wide and pull me through Hold the fall Keep the nerve Give the starving What they deserve I am shaking I am small But I want this After all Hold Me Through} Inside of you I learn to breathe A hidden life A quiet seed Inside of you The hurt comes loose I am not waste I am not use Inside of you I come undone A buried heart A sheltered sun Inside of you The fear lets go I am still small But I am whole