I always wanted to die with a smile...so why am I crying?(Mu Chengyu Cover)

[lntro] I thought I'd go with peace inside A quiet smile, no need to hide But here I am, falling apart Tears are flowing, breaking my heart [Verse 1] I painted my world with colors so bright Hoping the dark would stay out of sight I told myself I could carry on But the weight of it all, I can't outrun [Pre-Chorus] I told myself I'd smile through the pain But now I don't know how to explain Why the tears fall when I wanted grace Why this sorrow's taking my place [Chorus] I always wanted to die with a smile But here I am, lost in denial Fighting my thoughts, fighting the night So why am I crying with no end in sight? [Verse 2] I dreamt of peace, no fear, no regrets But the past keeps haunting, no way to forget I tried to stay strong, tried to stand tall But now I'm feeling so small [Pre-Chorus 2] I told myself I'd make it through That I would find the strength to renew But now I question all my lies Why does the smile feel like a disguise? [Chorus 2] I always wanted to die with a smile But here I am, lost in denial Fighting my thoughts, fighting the night So why am I crying with no end in sight? [Bridge] Maybe it's okay to let it fall To cry a little, to feel it all Maybe I don't have to be so strong Maybe this pain won't last too long [Chorus 3] I always wanted to die with a smile But maybe I don't have to hide for a while It's okay to cry, it's okay to break And let the tears wash away the ache [Outro] I always wanted to die with a smile But maybe, just maybe, it's time to rest a while I'll find my peace, I'II find my way And maybe, just maybe, I'Il smile someday