[Intro] I found my voice from before you broke it God I sounded so happy I sounded like me [Verse 1] There’s a voice note from July three minutes, twenty-nine I don’t remember what I said but I remember I was fine I was laughing through the static talking way too fast like I didn’t know a person could become a before-and-after And I keep playing it back like it’s proof I was alive like maybe if I listen close she’ll tell me how to survive [Pre-Chorus] She says my name like she still likes it like she still fits inside her skin I put the phone up to my chest like I can breathe her back in come back come back come back [Chorus] I miss the girl in the voice notes from before the one who didn’t sound scared walking across the floor I miss that laugh I miss that light I miss the me who used to sleep at night where’d she go where’d she go I keep pressing play like she’ll come back somehow but she’s only on my phone and I need her right now [Post-Chorus] Everybody says “You’re stronger than you were” but I don’t want to be strong I want to be her [Verse 2] There’s a picture where I’m smiling with my mouth open wide back when joy didn’t feel like something I had to hide Now I make jokes in rooms just to prove I’m still there then I go home and stare at the ceiling like a prayer I used to dance in the kitchen with my phone on two percent now I can’t hear a door slam without leaving my body again I want the soft back I want the light back I want to wake up and not fight back [Chorus] I miss the girl in the voice notes from before the one who didn’t sound scared walking across the floor I miss that laugh I miss that light I miss the me who used to sleep at night where’d she go where’d she go I keep pressing play like she’ll come back somehow but she’s only on my phone and I need her right now [Post-Chorus] Everybody says “You’re stronger than you were” but I don’t want to be strong I want to be her [Bridge] I’m so fucking sick of calling this healing when half the time I don’t know what I’m feeling I’m so fucking tired of being told I survived when nobody asks what part of me died I don’t miss your hands I don’t miss your face I miss who I was before I made you a place in my chest in my head in the bed where I forgot how to rest come back come back I’m sorry I left you come back come back I’m still in here [Final Chorus] I miss the girl in the voice notes from before the one who had a whole life waiting at the door Everybody says “You’re stronger than you were” but I don’t want to be strong I want to be her I miss that laugh I miss that light I miss the me who used to sleep at night where’d she go where’d she go I keep pressing play like she’ll come back somehow but she’s only on my phone and I need her right now [Outro] There’s a voice note from July I played it again tonight she laughed then I cried I said, “Are you still in there?” she said nothing back but I swear for a second I heard me laugh I heard me come back.
