[INTRO – spoken / very soft] They say I’m too much… but I was never held enough. My heart is a hospital with no lights… and I’m still walking alone inside it. ⸻ [VERSE 1 – soft rap] My body never rests, it’s always on edge like something bad is about to happen again they say I’m “too sensitive”, I feel too much but I’m just living in what never stopped my heart goes fast when nothing is there I sit still but I’m full of fear I look for myself in someone’s eyes but I disappear every single time ⸻ [PRE-CHORUS] I never learned how to just be me only how to not be left ⸻ [CHORUS – emotional, melodic] See me… even when I break hold me… even when I shake I fall again and again and again love feels like air – and like it kills me again ⸻ [VERSE 2 – darker rap] I remember everything, I can’t turn it off my body keeps it, it’s never gone his hands still live inside my skin even when the police said “there’s nothing here” “prove it”… how do you prove pain? when it’s written inside your veins I stood there shaking, falling apart and no one came, no one stayed ⸻ [PRE-CHORUS] it didn’t end… it just stayed in me ⸻ [CHORUS – stronger] See me… even when I break hold me… even when I shake I fall again and again and again love feels like air – and like it kills me again ⸻ [VERSE 3 – very raw, slower] I use hard sex just to feel something real not because I want it – I just can’t feel my body becomes something I leave and I hate myself when I come back to me I lie still, staring at the ceiling empty… numb… no meaning shame in my skin, I can’t wash it off it stays with me, it never stops ⸻ [BREAK – minimal, almost silent] I’m not too much… I was just never held. ⸻ [CHORUS – stripped, fragile] See me… don’t turn away hold me… please just stay ⸻ [VERSE 4 – soft, emotional] my phone is quiet, I check again hoping someone thinks of me not because I can’t be alone but I’ve always been alone in me they ask me “what do you do?” I say “nothing”… how do I say I’m just trying to survive? ⸻ [BRIDGE – attachment, rising emotion] when someone looks at me with warmth everything in me breaks open my body panics and calms at once like I finally exist for a moment I hold on inside, I can’t let go like a child that was never held before I know it’s a lot, I know it’s too much but I never learned how to be loved ⸻ [FINAL CHORUS – big, emotional peak] See me… even when I break hold me… even when I shake don’t leave… when I’m too much I’m still here, I just hurt too much ⸻ [OUTRO – soft, almost whisper] My name is Ester… I’m still here. I’m trying… not to disappear.
