"Do I go do I stay"

[Verse 1] Cold coffee on the counter Crayons on the floor again Two small sweaters by the front door Still tagged with yesterday’s rain They’re laughing in the hallway I’m yelling from a tired place Their shoes are on the wrong feet My tears are on my face [Chorus] I didn’t know it would feel like this Every hour Hit or miss I am their shelter Their softest pillow But I’m cracking under every shadow He’s gone chasing someone’s tomorrow I’m here holding all this sorrow I am their mother And I’m scared I’m getting it wrong [Verse 2] The baby’s in my bedroom Dreams tangled in her hair The oldest asks “Is Daddy coming?” I freeze inside that air I say “He loves you Baby” And watch it hit his chest Then read the same old bedtime story While guilt won’t let me rest [Chorus] I didn’t know it would feel like this Every hour Hit or miss I am their shelter Their softest pillow But I’m cracking under every shadow He’s gone chasing someone’s tomorrow I’m here holding all this sorrow I am their mother And I’m scared I’m getting it wrong [Bridge] I chose this life But I miss my own I built this home Yet feel alone Was there a door I shouldn’t have walked through? If I could go back Would I still choose you? [Chorus] I didn’t know it would feel like this Every hour Hit or miss I am their shelter Their softest pillow Even broken I still try to follow He’s gone chasing someone’s tomorrow I’m here learning from this sorrow I am their mother And I’ll stay Even when I’m wrong I still won't walk away