[Intro] Yeah… 4 A.M. again. Same demons, different night. [Chorus] 4 A.M., yeah I’m noddin’ off Prayin’ this ain’t the one that fucks me off Hide my pain in this camouflage Still somehow it’s my fuckin’ fault But I don’t wanna let go, let go I’m never gonna let go, let go [Verse 1] I’m sufferin’ from boredom in my own head Suburbia nightmares in the same bed I chase that feeling just to feel normal Heart full of scars, yeah, life informal Pain in my gut like it’s permanent Shakes in my hands, yeah, I’m nervous again I don’t go out, I just order in Isolation feelin’ like a tour I’m in Clean for a minute, then I relapse Not always pills, sometimes it’s flashbacks Lost real love, yeah, I got that tatted Can’t eat, can’t sleep, soul feel fragmented [Pre-Chorus] Family curses run deep in my veins Tryin’ to break them but I feel the chains Every memory burns when I face it So I numb my brain just to escape it [Chorus] 4 A.M., yeah I’m noddin’ off Prayin’ this ain’t the one that fucks me off Hide my pain in this camouflage Still somehow it’s my fuckin’ fault But I don’t wanna let go, let go I’m never gonna let go, let go [Verse 2] I’m addicted to love that hurts me Attracted to fire that burns me I fall for beauty with sharp edges Then blame myself for the damage Uppers and downers, people and lies Same damn cycle, different disguise Medicine numb but it eats my brain Try to feel nothing, still feel the pain There’s a part of me frozen in time Still stuck in moments I can’t rewind I erase memories just to survive But they come back every fuckin’ night [Bridge] Baby, I won’t let you go Even when you’re the reason I’m low Lovin’ you was never a joke That’s why your ghost still owns my soul Yeah… I hold on to pain like it’s loyalty. [Final Chorus] 4 A.M., yeah I’m noddin’ off Prayin’ this ain’t the one that fucks me off Hide my pain in this camouflage Still somehow it’s my fuckin’ fault But I don’t wanna let go, let go I’m never gonna let go, let go [Outro] 4 A.M… Still here. Still broken. Still breathin’.
