[Intro] I was fine I was fire I was almost in control Then the quiet opened wide And swallowed me whole [Verse 1] I know you see it sinking in my face The color leaving, the shape I can’t fake You ask if I’m okay I say I’m fine Like both of us don’t hear the lie Nothing happened That’s the part I hate No broken glass No match, no flame No final word that pushed me down No reason I can point to now I was here I was clear I was almost in control Then the quiet opened wide And swallowed me whole [Pre-Chorus] How do I ask you To enter this place When I don’t know the monster I’m trying to name? How do I tell you I’m losing the fight When I don’t even know What started tonight? [Chorus] Am I enough? Am I too late? Is my life built On every mistake? I should be further I should be more But I’m still choking On the same dark shore Am I behind? Am I cursed? Am I healing Or getting worse? There’s no glory in the undertow No lesson in the deep No choir in the wreckage No shelter in my sleep [Verse 2] I know you see it behind my eyes The lights going dead In a room full of life I laugh at the right time I move how I should But something inside me Is flooding for good And I can’t explain it I can’t make it clear How do you scream underwater For someone to hear? My mind starts digging With both bare hands Through every wrong turn Through every bad plan Every version of me That I failed to become Every year that I lost Every place I ran from No trigger No warning No visible wound Just me going under In a regular room [Pre-Chorus] How do I ask you To enter this place When I don’t know the monster I’m trying to name? How do I tell you I’m not doing fine When I can’t find the door To the dark in my mind? [Chorus] Am I enough? Am I too late? Is my life built On every mistake? I should be further I should be more But I’m still choking On the same dark shore Am I behind? Am I cursed? Am I healing Or getting worse? There’s no glory in the undertow No lesson in the deep No choir in the wreckage No shelter in my sleep [Bridge] You say you see me But I don’t know how Not the way I see myself When the mirror gets loud I don’t understand What you’re trying to save When all I see staring back Is a face I can’t place I don’t like the darkness Wearing my skin I don’t know where it starts I don’t know where I begin So how do you see me Like I’m still worth the fight? When I can’t stand the shape Of myself in the light [Breakdown] I said I’m fine I said I’m fine I said I’m fine But I lied Nothing happened Nothing changed No one touched me No one said my name I was breathing I was standing I was almost okay Then one thought split open And the rest found a way Am I enough? Am I too late? Is my life built On every mistake? Am I behind? Am I cursed? Am I healing Or getting worse? Say it again Say it again Say it again I was fine Then I wasn’t [Final Chorus] Am I enough? Am I too late? Is my life built On every mistake? I should be further I should be more But I’m still choking On the same dark shore Am I behind? Am I cursed? Am I healing Or getting worse? There’s no glory in the undertow No lesson in the deep No choir in the wreckage No shelter in my sleep And I know you see it Behind my eyes The lights going dead In a room full of life But I can’t explain it I can’t make it clear How do you scream underwater For someone to hear? [Outro] You ask if I’m okay I say I’m fine And hate myself For making it a lie But how do I ask you To enter this place When I don’t know the monster I’m trying to name?
