[Intro – clean electric, single-note melody, kick on 1 & 4] (ava - female, soft & fragile) I keep waiting for the other shoe I keep waiting… [Verse 1 – ava female, almost spoken over finger-picked guitar] You leave voicemails just to say you’re proud of me You remember that I hate the dark You laugh at my sarcasm like it’s poetry And you never make me feel like a question mark [Pre-Chorus – female, drums swell, toms rolling in 6/8] And I hate that I’m counting exits I hate that I’m writing your crimes before you commit them But every good morning feels like a trapdoor And I’ve fallen through too many floors [Chorus – femal, huge, gang-vocal ready] You do everything a hopeful girl wants Flowers on a Tuesday, ask about my mom You answer at 3 a.m. when the doubts echo in my room You want me to believe in you But I believed in him too Trusted him completely as I dove in all out But the green on his flags washed away with every shout So how can I trust you to How can I believe you won’t do What I’ve already went through [Post-Chorus – instrumental, octave guitars soaring] (ava, female, half-screamed) I’m terrified of being terrified of you [Verse 2 – female, slightly heavier, kick doubles up] You say “take your time,” but I hear “run” You say “I’m not him,” but I’ve met him in everyone My heart’s got a restraining order against itself And you’re knocking with gentle hands [Pre-Chorus 2 – female, even bigger build] I’m sorry I flinch when you reach for me I’m sorry I google your name at 2:53 I want to be soft again God, I want to be soft again [Chorus – female, add harmony stack an octave up] You do everything a hopeful girl wants Flowers on a Tuesday, ask about my mom You answer at 3 a.m. when the doubts echo in my room You want me to believe in you But I believed in him too Trusted him completely as I dove in all out But the green on his flags washed away with every shout So how can I trust you to How can I believe you won’t do What I’ve already went through [Bridge – full band drops to just kick + pulsing synth.] (Ava, soft and tender, emotional) You continue to show up even on the worst days stick around even through my worst ways And I shove and I push, hope to god your pulled away But you continue to be steadfast in what you say, I believe that even the stars couldn't keep you away! (Ava, female overlapping, whispered at first then rising) But what if the maybe turns into a monster What if the flowers are just pretty apologies in advance? [instrumental interlude, guitar solo, drum solo] (Ava, explosive, full voice now) Then I’ll water them anyway I know you'll stay through every wilt and every storm I’m not asking you to trust the weather I’m asking you to trust that I’ll eventually accept your warmth! [Breakdown – heaviest moment, screamed gang vocals] (ava female) I WANT TO BELIEVE! I WANT TO BELIEVE! BUT BELIEVING BROKE ME! [Final Chorus – key change up to E major, tempo feels faster even though BPM is same, full choir of gang vocals](ava, female) You do everything a hopeful girl wants And you’ll keep doing it tomorrow, and every day after Flowers on a Tuesday, ask about my mom (Ava, female) You answer at 3 a.m. when the doubts echo in my room You want me to believe in you And maybe this time I do I’m trusting you slowly, I’m diving in scared But I’m diving I'm diving I'm diving! The green in your flags hasn’t faded yet So I’m holding my breath But I’m holding your hand And maybe that’s how I believe again [Outro – single guitar again, ava soft] I’m still waiting for the other shoe But for once… I hope it never drops
