[Verse 1] You gave me every reason to stay Every reason to believe You put your whole heart in my hands And I still found somewhere else to dream You never made me question your love Never made me beg for your attention You gave me everything I asked for While my mind kept somewhere else a reservation What the hell is wrong with me? Why can’t I just let you be enough? You love me like I’m worth saving And I keep reaching for what destroys us [Pre-Chorus] I don’t want to think about her So why does every thought lead back? I don’t want another woman So why do I keep looking when I have what I have? [Chorus] You gave me everything Everything I thought I wanted You love me like I’m worth saving While I’m thinking about someone And I’m ashamed I’m ashamed of what I feel You keep giving me your heart While mine won’t stay still You are the one I should love So why am I dreaming of someone else? You are the one who’s holding me But I can’t even hold myself [Verse 2] Every face becomes temptation Every smile becomes a test And I hate myself for noticing When you deserve my absolute best I could walk away from every number Every message, every door But there’s something in me reaching For the things I shouldn’t want anymore And there she is Living somewhere in the back of my head A ghost I keep feeding While you’re lying beside me instead I tell myself it’s nothing Then I feel it all again You keep calling me your future While I’m thinking where I’ve been [Pre-Chorus] I wish I could cut out the part of me That keeps wanting what I shouldn’t touch I wish my conscience would stop screaming Because I know I’m hurting someone I love [Chorus] You gave me everything Everything I thought I wanted You love me like I’m worth saving While I’m thinking about someone And I’m ashamed I’m ashamed of what I feel You keep giving me your heart While mine won’t stay still You are the one I should love So why am I dreaming of someone else? You are the one who’s holding me But I can’t even hold myself [Bridge] Maybe it’s not her Maybe it’s not them Maybe I’ve been running From myself again Maybe I don’t know how to love Something that doesn’t hurt Maybe I keep chasing temptation Because I don’t believe I deserve the good You never asked me to be perfect You only asked me to be real And I’ve been hiding all these thoughts That I don’t even want to feel What kind of person am I To be loved this deeply And still look over my shoulder For somebody who doesn’t need me? [Breakdown] You keep choosing me You keep fighting for me You keep loving me And I’m secretly fighting myself You keep choosing me You keep fighting for me While I’m fighting the urge To choose somebody else I’m ashamed I’m ashamed I’m ashamed Not because you weren’t enough Because you were [Final Chorus] You gave me everything Everything I thought I wanted You loved me like I’m worth saving While I was thinking about someone And I’m ashamed I’m ashamed of what I feel You kept giving me your heart While mine refused to heal You were the one I should love So why was I dreaming of someone else? You were the one who held me close And I couldn’t even hold myself [Outro] You deserved my whole heart Not half of it You deserved my eyes Not wandering eyes You deserved someone certain Not someone divided And I hate that I learned the truth While you were loving me You were enough I just wasn’t ready To be enough for you
