[intro – spoken, barely breathing] This isn’t a dream. Dreams end. This is the moment after the phone call, that just keeps replaying. [verse 1 – spoken, low, cracked] They tell you “he didn’t feel it” like that helps me breathe Like those words undo the violence of how fast the world took you One second you existed The next second you were physics, impact, chaos, headlines And I’m standing here holding a life that doesn’t make sense without you in it I wake up expecting texts that will never come I reach for my phone like muscle memory betrayed me Your name lives in my notifications like a ghost Unread. Unanswered. Unfair. People keep moving Laughing Complaining about traffic And I’m stuck at the moment your heart stopped Like time split in half and only I noticed [build – spoken, pressure rising] A cyclone doesn’t warn you It just takes everything in its path And my brother was standing right there No shelter No second chance No goodbye [chorus – spoken, heavy, controlled rage] This is my never ending nightmare I don’t sleep, I just close my eyes I don’t rest, I just pause the pain Until it finds me again This is my never ending nightmare Where the world keeps spinning But my blood stopped with you And nobody knows what that does to a man [verse 2 – spoken, sharper, angrier] They say “stay strong” like strength is a switch Like I didn’t already carry you out of the wreckage in my head Every night Frame by frame What if I called sooner What if I said more What if love had weight enough to stop momentum Your laugh still lives in my ears Your voice still interrupts my thoughts Sometimes I forget you’re gone And for half a second I feel normal Then reality punches me in the throat I don’t miss you peacefully I miss you violently Like something was ripped out of my chest And left a vacuum that screams when I breathe [build – slower, darker] Grief isn’t sadness It’s learning how to function with an open wound It’s watching your family age ten years overnight It’s birthdays that feel like insults It’s holidays that taste like guilt [chorus – spoken, heavier] This is my never ending nightmare Your death didn’t end It multiplied It lives in my routine In my silence In the way I don’t talk about the future anymore This is my never ending nightmare I carry your absence like a sentence Life without parole Just time and memory doing laps around my heart [verse 3 – spoken, raw, breaking] I’d trade years Dreams Anything they think matters Just to hear you say my name one more time Just to know you’re still somewhere solid I hate the randomness of it The cruelty of statistics How something so final happened so casually Like the universe shrugged and kept going They say you’re “at peace” But I’m not I’m trapped between who I was with you And who I’m forced to be without you Some days I’m angry at the world Some days I’m angry at God Some days I’m just tired Of surviving something I didn’t choose [bridge – quiet, suffocating] I don’t fear death anymore I fear forgetting the sound of your laugh I fear a day where saying your name Doesn’t hurt enough [final chorus – spoken, slow, devastating] This is my never ending nightmare Where love didn’t protect you Where strength didn’t save you Where good people still disappear This is my never ending nightmare But I carry you forward In every breath I fight for In every step I refuse to stop taking [outro – spoken, almost calm] They say time heals. That’s a lie. Time teaches you how to live With the nightmare.
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