# **I WANT TO FORGIVE MYSELF** I wanna forgive myself... For every kindness I gave away, For walking away from my own heart, For needing someone just to stay. [VERSE 1 — Gentle 6/8 | Intimate female vocal] I wanna forgive myself For every time I swallowed pain, For every word I left unsaid, For every loss I called my blame. For everything I never became, For every weight I carried alone, For all the years I spent believing I had to earn a place called home. I'm tired... So damn tired... Of carrying yesterday Like a sentence on my back. I wanna forgive myself For every road I took the wrong way, For every door I should have closed, For every person I let stay. I wanna forgive myself For all the years I lost, For every dream I couldn't save. I'm tired of being punished For simply being human. Tonight, I choose to stay. I wanna be a child again, Just for a little while. Run until my lungs give out, Laugh until I lose my mind. Find the friends I knew before The sadness learned my name, And show them that beneath these scars I'm still that person underneath. Maybe for one night We don't have to understand. Maybe in the middle of this madness We can laugh again. I wanna forgive myself For every choice I wish I'd changed, For every lesson that cost too much, For every hour I spent in shame. I wanna forgive myself For every road I took the wrong way, For every door I should have closed, For every person I let stay. I wanna forgive myself For all the years I lost. I'm tired of being punished For simply being human. Tonight, I choose myself. Don't remind me of the sky... Let the rain come down. I've spent my whole life Trying to reach the clouds. Maybe I don't need to fly. Maybe I just need To stand here... In my own skin... Without asking anyone For permission to exist. Let me forgive the child I was. Let me forgive who I couldn't become. Let me forgive the heart That loved too much. Let me forgive... Me. I wanna forgive myself! For every kindness I gave away, For every time I stayed When I should've walked away. For every dream I buried Just to make somebody stay. I wanna forgive myself! For every scar, Every mistake, Every piece of me I tried to hide. I'm done carrying yesterday Like a sentence for life. Tonight I lift my head. Tonight I breathe. Tonight I finally say— I FORGIVE ME. Maybe I don't need To become someone new. Maybe I just need To stop fighting who I've been. For once... I choose myself. And that's enough. ```
