distal fuck it

[Intro] [lo-fi piano, distant static, heavy breathing] Yeah… This one’s for the people whose bodies quit before their minds ever did. [Verse 1] Wake up every morning feelin’ trapped inside skin Brain says “move” but the muscles don’t listen Dropped my damn phone for the fifth time today Can’t even pick it up without help halfway Everybody stares when I walk too slow Legs feel like concrete everywhere I go Hands curled tight, can’t grip shit right Buttonin’ a shirt turns into a damn fight And people say “stay positive, keep your chin high” Cool advice while I’m fighting just to wipe Tried to laugh it off but the truth still hits Distal spinal muscular atrophy is a bitch [Pre-Chorus] I ain’t lazy I ain’t weak I’m just tired of my body beatin’ me And nobody sees The little hells Like needing help for the simplest things yourself [Chorus] It fucking sucks not using your hands Can’t open bottles, can’t hold what I can Can’t walk worth a shit when my legs give out Still drag myself forward even full of doubt Yeah it’s hard when your body won’t cooperate Every damn movement feels second-rate But I’m still here, breathing somehow Middle fingers up to this disease right now [Verse 2] Tryna tie my shoes got me sweatin’ like hell Dropped the keys again, yeah I know that sound well Friends wanna hike, wanna run, wanna climb I’m calculating every step every time Bathroom mirror lookin’ back at me strange Body changed fast while my mind stayed the same And the worst damn part ain’t even the pain It’s losing independence little by little every day Need help getting dressed Need help standing straight Need help with shit most people don’t think about anyway And yeah I joke dark ‘cause it keeps me sane Otherwise I’d drown in all this rage [Bridge] I miss feeling normal I miss not thinking twice About walking through a parking lot Or just living life But if you feel this too If your body fights your soul Just know you ain’t alone Even when it feels cold [Final Chorus] Yeah it fucking sucks not using your hands And not being able to stand like a man And every tiny task becomes a war somehow But I refuse to let this shit define me now I got scars in my pride Got pain in my bones But I still wake up every day and carry on Distal spinal muscular atrophy took a lot from me But it’ll never take every piece of me [Outro] [soft guitar fading out]