[Verse 1] I woke up smaller than the room, One red eye and borrowed steel, Couldn’t move the way I used to, Couldn’t tell what I could feel. Leva said my core was stable, SKK said, “You’re still here.” Neru tried so hard to smile at me— So I laughed. Because that’s easier than fear. [Pre-Chorus] I said, “Look at me, I fit in vents now.” Said, “Bet I’m harder to shoot.” Everyone laughed. And I laughed too. But no one asked What I was trying to prove. [Chorus] I’m still me, Aren’t I? Still loud, Still reckless, Still starting every fight. Still me, Aren’t I? So why do I miss Standing in the light? Why do I miss Running till my lungs would burn, Hands around the people I was lucky to return to? I know I survived. I know I should be glad. But I lost my body— And I didn’t know How much of home it had. [Verse 2] I miss boots against the concrete, I miss weight beneath my feet, I miss reaching for the counter Without making it a feat. I miss leaning on your shoulder, I miss arms around your neck, I miss throwing myself forward Without wondering what breaks next. And yeah, I know this little chassis saved me. I know what Leva had to do. She pulled me out of dying. She gave me back to you. [Pre-Chorus] So don’t think I’m ungrateful. Don’t think I don’t understand. I just didn’t know I’d miss Having two hands. [Chorus] I’m still me, Aren’t I? Still chaos, Still stubborn, Still impossible at night. Still me, Aren’t I? So why does every mirror Feel slightly wrong in sight? Why do I miss Running till my lungs would burn, Hands around the people I was lucky to return to? I know I survived. I know I should be glad. But I lost my body— And I didn’t know How much of home it had. [Bridge] There are things I never thanked it for. Stupid things. The way fingers curled. The way knees bent. The sound of boots in the hall. The way I could pick Neru up Just because she complained. The way SKK hugged me And I could hug him back. The way Leva would roll her eyes When I threw an arm around her. I thought a body Was just the thing that carried me. Turns out… It carried all of that too. [Instrumental swell] [Verse 3] So if I stare a little longer At the bodies on the screen, If I talk about new hardware Like it’s just another scheme, If I laugh and call it upgrades, If I act like this is fun— Maybe I’m just trying Not to say what I really want. [Build] I don’t need to be perfect. I don’t need to be new. I don’t need to be pretty. I just want to feel like… Me. With you. [Final Chorus] I’m still me. I know that now. Still loud, Still reckless, Still somehow hanging ’round. Still me. And I’ll learn this shape Until another can be found. But someday I want To run until my whole frame burns, Reach out with both hands To everyone I returned to. I know I survived. And yeah… I am glad. But I lost my body— And I’m finally allowed To be sad. [Outro] So build me something, someday. Something strong. Something fast. Something with arms long enough To hold all of you at once. And maybe… A little room for upgrades. [pause] GYAHAHA… …yeah. Still me.
