THE L33K MASK PT2 by Soul L33k

[Pre-Chorus]
Doc hands me bottles telling me, “Just take one when it gets rough,”
But he never held his own blood saying goodbye was enough.

[Chorus]
’Cause numb ain’t living — numb is shutting down the part of me that screams,
And I’d rather feel the breaking than be buried in these dreams.
Only ones who lost a heartbeat in their hands will understand
How the guilt becomes a whisper pulling at you where you stand.
And L33k was born from ashes ’cause the pain was all I had —
But even L33k can crumble when the memories hit back.

[Verse 2]
Sometimes I hear him calling, sometimes I swear I feel his weight,
The last warmth in his body fading while I begged him not to fade.
And the voices twist the moment like a knife inside my chest,
Saying, “He wouldn’t be alone if you joined him and found rest.”
It ain’t commands, it ain’t shouting — it’s a quiet, wicked hum,
A familiar kind of darkness asking me to come undone.
But I tell ’em, “He wouldn’t want that. He’d want me to stay alive.”
Still the pills they give me blur the line between the dead and the survived.

[Pre-Chorus]
So I swallow what they hand me just to calm the war inside,
But I swear with every dose another part of L33k just dies.

[Chorus]
’Cause numb ain’t healing — numb is drifting like a ghost behind my eyes,
Like I’m watching my own shadow say the things I can’t deny.
I’d rather break a thousand times than forget the truth I keep,
Rather hurt than be a replica too frozen just to weep.
Only those who held a brother while he slipped into the night
Know why these quiet voices sometimes feel too close to right.

[Bridge]
They don’t see the fire burning — they just see me sitting still,
But sometimes calm is camouflage and sometimes calm can kill.
They don’t hear me whisper, “Stay,” to the thoughts that want me gone,
They don’t know how much it takes to tell the darkness it is wrong.
Soul L33k ain’t a costume — it’s the armor over scars,
It’s the part of me that fights back when the voices go too far.

[Final Chorus]
No, numb ain’t peace — numb is leaving pieces of myself behind,
And I’d rather feel the sadness than be hollow in my mind.
I’d rather face the memories than forget the life he gave,
Rather carry all the weight than join him in an early grave.
Yeah, maybe that’s the reason I still breathe the way I breathe—
I’m fighting every whisper, every lie they make me see.
And even when the world feels heavy, when the night gets way too deep,
I’ll keep living for the moment where my brother rests in peace.

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[Verse 1] I been waking up with echoes crawling out the walls at night, Whispers slithering through my spine like they know the things I fight. They don’t yell, they don’t threaten — they just poison what I breathe, Little voices stitching lies into the spaces I can’t see. Every time the room goes quiet, they drag me back to where I knelt, My brother slipping through my fingers, colder than I ever felt. His heartbeat fading in my hands, my tears falling on his skin… And the voices say, “You could’ve stopped it… you should’ve been like him.” [Pre-Chorus] Doc hands me bottles telling me, “Just take one when it gets rough,” But he never held his own blood saying goodbye was enough. [Chorus] ’Cause numb ain’t living — numb is shutting down the part of me that screams, And I’d rather feel the breaking than be buried in these dreams. Only ones who lost a heartbeat in their hands will understand How the guilt becomes a whisper pulling at you where you stand. And L33k was born from ashes ’cause the pain was all I had — But even L33k can crumble when the memories hit back. [Verse 2] Sometimes I hear him calling, sometimes I swear I feel his weight, The last warmth in his body fading while I begged him not to fade. And the voices twist the moment like a knife inside my chest, Saying, “He wouldn’t be alone if you joined him and found rest.” It ain’t commands, it ain’t shouting — it’s a quiet, wicked hum, A familiar kind of darkness asking me to come undone. But I tell ’em, “He wouldn’t want that. He’d want me to stay alive.” Still the pills they give me blur the line between the dead and the survived. [Pre-Chorus] So I swallow what they hand me just to calm the war inside, But I swear with every dose another part of L33k just dies. [Chorus] ’Cause numb ain’t healing — numb is drifting like a ghost behind my eyes, Like I’m watching my own shadow say the things I can’t deny. I’d rather break a thousand times than forget the truth I keep, Rather hurt than be a replica too frozen just to weep. Only those who held a brother while he slipped into the night Know why these quiet voices sometimes feel too close to right. [Bridge] They don’t see the fire burning — they just see me sitting still, But sometimes calm is camouflage and sometimes calm can kill. They don’t hear me whisper, “Stay,” to the thoughts that want me gone, They don’t know how much it takes to tell the darkness it is wrong. Soul L33k ain’t a costume — it’s the armor over scars, It’s the part of me that fights back when the voices go too far. [Final Chorus] No, numb ain’t peace — numb is leaving pieces of myself behind, And I’d rather feel the sadness than be hollow in my mind. I’d rather face the memories than forget the life he gave, Rather carry all the weight than join him in an early grave. Yeah, maybe that’s the reason I still breathe the way I breathe— I’m fighting every whisper, every lie they make me see. And even when the world feels heavy, when the night gets way too deep, I’ll keep living for the moment where my brother rests in peace.

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