Used to dive the darkest nooks Hide my hands inside my sleeves Learned to walk in smaller steps So my thoughts could never leave All those days in quiet rooms Every joke I never made Smiled along inside my name Like I wasn't just afraid Now the mirror says my name In a softer kind of way All these lines across my face Marks of time I gave away I was standing by the door While my life walked on through Now I'm learning how to stay In the shape of something true Saw a stranger on the train Hair in colors I once dreamed Laughed so loud the whole car turned She sat solid in her skin I kept staring at my shoes Felt the heat behind my eyes All the years, every coat Buttoned over quiet lies Now the mirror says my name In a softer kind of way All these lines across my face Marks of time I gave away I was standing by the door While my life walked on through Now I'm learning how to stay In the shape of something true Will there be time To dance in this skin To kiss in the sunlight To let someone in I lost whole decades To a name that wasn't mine Now every tiny first time Feels like stealing back the time Now the mirror knows my name Every curve and quiet scar I can breathe inside my voice Even if the game was far I was waiting in the wings For a cue that never came Now I'm walking on the stage And I'm using my own name I’m using my own name
