You Don't Know Me

[Verse 1] One dealer looked at me Said nah I'm not selling to you anymore Thought maybe I'd done something wrong No You ain't bad That's the problem I feel fucked up Giving this to you You don't belong Doing this shit Didn't know What to say to that Then another dealer Didn't know the first one Looked at me Almost the same way Said he didn't Want to sell to me either Not because I caused problems he felt bad for my sake watching my fall take place Two different dealers Turning down my money Starting to feel like Everybody knew something Before I did [Verse 2] About a week before I got in a fight Over a joint Almost reached For the hatchet Hesitated Then my tooth Went through my lip Hit the ground Bleeding He had me Could've kept going Didn't Stopped Looked down at me And said This life Isn't for you You should Get out Laying there With blood Running down my face Thinking Why the fuck Does everybody Keep telling me that? [Pre-Chorus] Didn't leave that day Didn't suddenly Figure shit out Kept getting high Kept moving around But those words Kept showing up From people I never expected Until one day I finally listened [Chorus] You don't know me But I need help I don't know What else to say I've seen you Standing around here before Outside those meetings While I was Going the other way You don't know me But I need help I don't know Where this goes I just know I can't keep doing What I've been doing And I don't know How to stop Alone [Verse 3] Did my last shot Didn't know It was gonna become My last shot It was just The one I did Before I walked Made my way Toward the park Saw some random guy Sitting on a bench Recognized him I'd seen him before Out around The drug area Standing outside An NA meeting Didn't know his name Never talked to him Didn't know If he'd even remember Seeing me Walked over anyway Stood there Trying to speak You don't know me But I need help Then everything I'd been holding Came out with the tears He looked at me Said I've seen you around Used to wonder If you'd ever Make it to the rooms Never thought I'd be the one Helping you get there [Chorus] You don't know me But I need help Funny thing was He knew my face I'd been walking Past those rooms While he'd been Watching me walk away You don't know me But I need help Was all I knew To say He'd wondered If I'd ever come inside Then helped me Find the way [Verse 4] After the meeting He drove me back By one of my spots I grabbed My backpack Looked around At everything else And left it Didn't pack up My whole life Didn't need Most of it anymore Clothes My iPad Whatever fit Inside that bag Everything else Could stay Where it was Got back In his car And we drove A town over To another meeting [Verse 5] He started Making calls Found a sober living house They said Don't use For one day Then you Can live here One day That's it? One day Didn't have Anywhere else to go Middle of winter So I slept At the meeting hall Outside In the smoking area Backpack beside me Cold all fucking night Nothing dramatic Nothing mystical I just Didn't use [Bridge] One hour Then another Then another Cold concrete Winter air People came People left I stayed there They didn't ask me For forever Didn't ask me Who I'd become They asked me For one day So for one day I was done [Final Chorus] You don't know me But I need help Funny how much Can start that way Some random man I'd seen around Finally heard What I couldn't say You don't know me But I need help And he gave me Somewhere to begin Not forever Not the rest Of my fucking life Just enough To get me Through that night [Outro] Morning came He came back Let me use The phone Called the house Told 'em I didn't use I slept in the safest place available to me [Pause] You did what? Are you Fucking kidding me? You slept where? Get over here First time I ever got clean Wasn't the last time I'd have to learn it But it was the first time I learned I could