[Verse 1] I wake up already spinning Body tight and mind on fire Tried to sleep but the noise got louder Every need turned into a wire I know I come on too strong sometimes I know the volume gets too high But I’m not trying to take from anyone I’m just trying not to die inside [Pre-Chorus] I’ve looked at my own reflection Seen the parts that scare me too But loving hard ain’t the same as using And I’m still learning the difference through [Chorus] I’m fucked up and feeling And I won’t apologize for the volume Fighting for my life and my love In a body that won’t calm down I’m fucked up and feeling But I still throw the next punch I won’t let the worst version of me Be the only one that gets to show up [Verse 2] Some nights the hunger feels endless Some nights the silence cuts deeper I get told I’m too much or not enough And both of those voices linger I’ve got history with the darker traits The ones that make people run But I also know the other side The one that stays and still shows up [Pre-Chorus] I’ve looked at my own reflection Seen the parts that scare me too But loving hard ain’t the same as using And I’m still learning the difference through [Chorus] I’m fucked up and feeling And I won’t apologize for the volume Fighting for my life and my love In a body that won’t calm down I’m fucked up and feeling But I still throw the next punch I won’t let the worst version of me Be the only one that gets to show up [Bridge] I’m not asking to be excused I’m asking to be seen clear The drive is real, the care is real Both can live in the same year I get up when the gut is twisted I get up when the head won’t quit I keep choosing the harder road Even when I feel like shit [Final Chorus] I’m fucked up and feeling And I won’t apologize for the volume Fighting for my life and my love In a body that won’t calm down I’m fucked up and feeling But I still throw the next punch I won’t let the worst version of me Be the only one that gets to show up [Outro] Still fucked up Still feeling Still trying Still here
