[Verse 1] I felt it first in the grocery store line The fluorescent hum, the shaking in my spine Like the world got heavier overnight again Every stranger looked like a weather report Bad news wrapped in skin and denim coats And I laughed too loud just to feel human You touched my arm like you could stop the fall Like maybe love was something physical But I've seen what happens to beautiful things I hold them too tight Then they disappear quietly [Chorus] I'm a black hole with a heartbeat Pulling in every good thing near me You light a match, I call it a sunrise Then wait for the smoke to blind me Everybody says, "Just let yourself be loved" Like it isn't terrifying enough To know one day you'll see me clearly And finally leave Before I swallow everything [Verse 2] Some nights I swear I'm getting better I make plans, answer texts, wear clean sweaters Open the blinds and let the summer in Then one wrong thought turns into a landslide And suddenly the room feels airtight Like the walls learned how to lean inward You tell me I'm not hard to hold But you don't know the math I know Stars collapse even when they're beautiful That's just what pressure does That's just what time does [Chorus] I'm a black hole with a heartbeat Pulling in every good thing near me You light a match, I call it a sunrise Then wait for the smoke to blind me Everybody says, "Just let yourself be loved" Like it isn't terrifying enough To know one day you'll see me clearly And finally leave Before I swallow everything [Bridge] Maybe that's the worst part I can still feel the sparks I still want the music, the backseat laughter Still want somebody reaching for my hand When the whole room turns dark after dark after dark But every time I start believing The gravity starts creeping in And I become the thing I was trying not to be [Final Chorus] I'm a black hole with a heartbeat A little universe collapsing You kiss my forehead like a promise While I count down to the ending And if you stay, I'll call you magic If you leave, I'll say I planned it Either way I'll sit here wondering How something warm could touch me Without disappearing
