I've been leaving things on read Got a graveyard in my head Of conversations I meant to have Just never did Used to be the one who checked in Now I can't remember when I started letting everything Go quiet It's not you I know that's what they all say It's not you I just ran out of words one day And I haven't found them since I don't know how to tell you I'm not who I was I don't know how to show up When I can barely show up for us So I go quiet I go quiet And I hate myself for it But I go quiet Your name comes up I feel it That pull to reach out Then nothing Like a door I keep walking past Never opening Not because I don't want to Because want takes energy I don't have It's not you I know that's what they all say It's not you I just ran out of words one day And I haven't found them since I don't know how to tell you I'm not who I was I don't know how to show up When I can barely show up for us So I go quiet I go quiet And I hate myself for it But I go quiet I think about you more than you know I just can't seem to close the distance Between thinking and doing Between missing and calling I'm working on it I swear I'm working on it I'll come back around I always do I just need a little longer this time A little longer
