[Intro – clean guitar, tape hiss, distant room reverb] (whispered, flat) I don’t remember when it commenced (where did it start) Just that it never ceased (it never stopped) āø» [Verse 1 – clean male vocal, Midwest emo cadence] I wake up already defeated (here we go again) Like the day made up its mind (what’s the point) Every notion feels second-rate (not good enough) Like I’m borrowing someone else’s time (tick-tock) I call it coping, you call it strength (who’s right) I call it staying out of the ground (hold on) But if this is me grasping on (don’t let go) Why do I feel buried now (suffocating) āø» [Pre-Chorus – clean with light grit, tension rising] I keep telling myself I’ll change (same old song) Like I haven’t heard it before (deaf to it) Every promise dies of old age (broken words) Right on my bedroom floor (crumbling beneath) āø» [Chorus – emotional clean, restrained, bleak] I dug a trench and hid inside (safe in the dark) Called it peace, called it time (nothing left to hide) If I don’t move, I don’t sink (stay still) If I don’t feel, I don’t think (numb to it all) I don’t wanna die (not yet) I just don’t wanna wake up (not today) Every day (repeat it) To the same ending (inevitable) āø» [Post-Chorus – instrumental swell, detuned guitars dragging] āø» [Verse 2 – clean male vocal, heavier backing] I keep poisoning myself (self-destruct) Then asking why I’m numb (fool’s call) I keep shaking hands with habits (bad ones) That already know how this ends (in the end) They say ā€œheal yourselfā€ like it’s easy (talk is cheap) Like I didn’t try and fail (tried and tried) Like I didn’t bleed quietly (in silence) Just to keep this shit from showing (mask up) āø» [Pre-Chorus 2 – clean + grit, more venom] I know the pattern by heart (etched in) I just don’t wanna break it (fearful) It’s the only thing that stayed (constant) When everything else escaped me (alone) āø» [Chorus 2 – full band, desperate but not hopeful] I dug a pit and called it home (familiar) I don’t feel secure anywhere I go (unsettled) If this is rock bottom (too deep) Why do I still descend? (falling) I don’t wanna die (fighting) I just don’t wanna keep lying (truth hurts) Saying this fight (it’s endless) Isn’t slowly killing me (bit by bit) āø» [Breakdown – deathcore, half-time, screamed male vocal] (short, violent, no space) I KNOW WHAT’S WRONG (it’s clear) I JUST DON’T CARE ANYMORE (apathy speaks) I KNOW I’M DYING (truth hurts) I’M JUST BORED OF THE WAR (enough) DIG (deeper) DIG (keep going) DIG (unearthing) THERE’S (nothing there) NOTHING (hollow) LEFT (nothing left) āø» [Bridge – ambient drop, clean male vocal, exhausted] If there’s a meaning (lost) It skipped me (forgotten) If there’s a reason (it’s gone) It doesn’t need me (or me) I tried forgiveness (forgive myself) It didn’t stick (like glue) I tried to change (turn around) I just got tired of it (too tired) āø» [Final Chorus – stripped, intimate, fragile] I excavated until there was nothing (emptiness) No sign, no end (just void) If this is all I am (acceptance) Let it stop pretending (reveal) I don’t wanna die (peacefully) I just wanna stop (enough) Feeling like I already did (release) āø» [Outro – abrupt, unresolved] (single sustained note, cut mid-word) I’m still— [HARD STOP / SILENCE]