The Armor Doesn't Fit Anymore

[Verse 1] I used to wear it like a second skin Every sharp edge was proof I could survive again I sharpened my tongue, I learned to disappear I told myself the distance made me stronger here [Pre-Chorus] But lately when I reach for it, it feels too wide Like something I outgrew but still keep by my side [Chorus] The armor doesn’t fit anymore It’s heavy on my shoulders when I walk through your door I keep trying to force it, but it scrapes at the skin And I don’t know who I am when I’m not armored in The armor doesn’t fit anymore And I’m scared of what’s left when I can’t wear it again [Verse 2] I used to call it discipline, I used to call it strength I used to say the numbness meant I’d go the length But now I feel it cracking every time you get too close And I flinch like it’s a threat instead of something I chose [Pre-Chorus] I spent so long becoming someone hard to break I never learned what happens when you want to stay [Chorus] The armor doesn’t fit anymore It’s heavy on my shoulders when I walk through your door I keep trying to force it, but it scrapes at the skin And I don’t know who I am when I’m not armored in The armor doesn’t fit anymore And I’m scared of what’s left when I can’t wear it again [Bridge] What if I’m not brave without it? What if I’m just soft and terrified? What if all the things I used to call protection Were just elegant ways I learned to hide? I don’t know how to be reachable Without feeling like I’m coming undone But staying like this is starting to feel Like the slowest way of dying young [Final Chorus] The armor doesn’t fit anymore And maybe that’s the point I’ve been running toward It’s heavy on my shoulders but I’m learning to set it down Even if it means you might see me when I’m not so proud The armor doesn’t fit anymore And I think I’m finally ready to find out who I am without it