[Verse 1] When you walk out through that front door The silence gets inside my head Every "I'll be back" starts sounding Like a goodbye instead My mind can turn the smallest distance Into reasons you might leave I know it doesn't make much sense now But it's what my heart believes [Pre-Chorus] I know you're out there living life Not looking for a way to run But fear can make a liar out of me Before the night is done [Chorus] I'm sorry for the nights I make you hold The weight of battles you never chose I keep reaching for your love By letting all my worst fears show I know you love me 'Cause every time you come back home The voices in my head go quiet And I don't feel so alone I'm trying to stop turning love Into something I have to prove I'm learning how to love you Without letting my fear speak first for me [Verse 2] Some nights I leave the lights off Forget there's dinner on the stove Get lost inside old conversations Trying to find what I don't know I bring up things we've already buried Just to hear you say we're okay Start a fight I never wanted Just 'cause I'm scared you'll walk away [Pre-Chorus] Then you look at me and suddenly Everything falls back into place You never gave me any reason I've just been fighting my own brain [Chorus] I'm sorry for the nights I make you hold The weight of battles you never chose I keep reaching for your love By letting all my worst fears show I know you love me 'Cause every time you come back home The voices in my head go quiet And I don't feel so alone I'm trying to stop turning love Into something I have to prove I'm learning how to love you Without letting my fear speak first for me [Bridge] I don't wanna make you responsible For every storm inside my mind You deserve a love that feels like home Not one that's scared all the time So if I say I'm gonna change It's more than words I throw around I'm trying every single day To put both feet back on the ground I don't need you to come save me I just hope you'll see me try 'Cause loving you should never mean Watching pieces of me die [Final Chorus] I'm sorry for the tears, the overthinking Every time I made my fear your fight You kept choosing me with open arms Even on my darkest nights I know you love me You've never stopped showing me So I'll keep choosing healing Even when it's hard to believe Maybe one day when you leave I won't mistake it for goodbye I'll finally trust the love you give The way you've always trusted mine [Outro] Until then I'll keep trying One day at a time 'Cause I love you More than all the fear I'm leaving behind.
