What if x Shards (Mashup)

What if I never begin? What if I lost my all? What if I couldn't believe? What if I never survived? Woke up with my shirt across the room I know it's mine But it hangs like a stranger What if I was nothing but a bullet in a barrel? What if doom is not a curse but my miracle? What if I´m a reflection of the worst in me? It's hard to believe that it's all for real I keep slipping through my fingers Shards of me all on the ground Faces in the bathroom light Ask me who I am right now I don't know I don't know I don't know who's wearing my skin What if I change my cursed life What if I lose my misplaced smile what if my destiny is changed? But what if I can´t remember how? Friends say I’ve been quiet I watch my body laugh for me Mouth moves I’m a ghost behind the glass What if all my tears flood the room What if doom is not a curse but my bloom? What if everyone I love leaves me It's hard to believe that it's all for real I keep slipping through my fingers Shards of me all on the ground Faces in the bathroom light Ask me who I am right now I don't know I don't know I don't know who's wearing my skin