echoes

IM TRYING TO READ ALL MY THOUGHTS AWAY EVERY SINGLE SECOND EVERY SINGLE DAY IM HOPELESS BUT I GUESS IT MEANS NOTHING TO ME TO BE AT THE EDGE AND NOT BE AFRAID I WANT TO FEEL SICK I WANT TO CRY I WANT TO FEEL LIKE IM NOT ALONE INSIDE I WANT TO HELP MYSELF I WANT TO BE BETTER BUT NO MATTER WHERE I GO THE SUN IS UNDER HOW CAN YOU JUSTIFY I SHOULDN'T BE LEFT ALONE IN MY HEAD SO FUCKING TERRIFIED ITS NOT LONG UNTIL THE END (Im under now) (i feel beaten to the ground) (like the current of the air) (drags me down) (all i hear are the echoes) (of my screams before i drown) I AM UNDER NOW I FEEL BEATEN TO THE GROUND LIKE THE CURRENT OF THE AIR DRAGS ME DOWN ALL I HEAR ARE THE ECHOES BEFORE I DROWN I AM UNDER NOW OH FALSE BUT RIGHT SOUL UNWINDS TRYING TO BE HOPELESS EVERYDAY CLOSER TO SUICIDE FEELING LIKE IM LOST AND NEVER FUCKING FOUND ALWAYS THE SAME WHILST I FEEL LIKE I FUCKING DROWN (in my mind i shouldnt be left alone) (moving on but i am way to slow) (if im honest this way forward sinks so low) (and moving backwards feels exactly how i know) I AM UNDER NOW I FEEL BEATEN TO THE GROUND LIKE THE CURRENT OF THE AIR DRAGS ME DOWN ALL I HEAR ARE THE ECHOES BEFORE I DROWN I AM UNDER NOW OH ITS GIVING ME AIR IN MY LUNGS JUST TO SPIT IT OUT HEALTHY FUCKING LIVER TO DRINK IT ALL OUT A GOOD FUCKING BRAIN WITH ALL OF ITS DOUBTS AND YET MY HEART PUMPS ON THROUGH ALL OF MY FLAWS (í never wanted this to be forever) (but its far too slow moving forward) (i want to help you get better) (but im not sure i am the one you) (need) SO COVER UP YOUR DEEDS AND TELL EM ALL YOUR LIES YOU FEEL SO GOOD TIL YOU'RE ALL ALONE TONIGHT NOT A NORMAL SOUL COULD SAVE A MIND SO IN THE DRAIN IM TRYING TO HELP YOU PLAY BUT ITS TAKING EVERYTHING FROM ME (Im under now) (i feel beaten to the ground) (like the current of the air) (drags me down) (all i hear are the echoes) (of my screams before i drown) I AM UNDER NOW I FEEL BEATEN TO THE GROUND LIKE THE CURRENT OF THE AIR DRAGS ME DOWN ALL I HEAR ARE THE ECHOES BEFORE I DROWN I AM UNDER NOW OH