I know better. Mm. That’s never stopped me. You arrive half a second before the doubt does. Perfect timing. Terrible habit. I keep the facts neatly filed underneath, then lose the whole argument when you look at me. No grand illusion. No innocent mistake. I see the ending and still dress for the date. I know the trick. I know the tell. I know the pressure point right before it breaks. Still when you look that way I let the answer change. I know better. I go anyway. I know better, Still I return. You make the lesson Impossible to learn. I know better, Still I give in. You barely begin and I’m already in. Oh— There I go, There I go again. I know better. I let you win. Again. Again. (I know better) Again. You never promise. That would ruin the effect. You keep it abstract Just enough to misdirect Every version of me I already put away. Very sophisticated. Very bad for my taste. I practice leaving in immaculate detail Every contradiction lined up perfectly straight. Then your number flashes. (Of Course) There goes the plan. I know the trick. I know the tell. I know the pressure point Right before it breaks. Still when you look that way I let the answer change. I know better. I go anyway. I know better, Sill I return. You make the lesson Impossible to learn. I know better, Still I give in. You barely begin And I’m already in. Oh There I go, There I go again. I know better. I let you win. Again. Again. (I know better.) Again. No mystery here. No spell to undo. No one dragged me Where I hadn’t chosen to. I had every exit. I’d rehearsed them before. Then heard your step And forgot what they were for. So don’t call it fate. Don’t make it profound. You change the terms and all my certainty breaks down.A I can name every reason This goes exactly wrong. Ask if that helps. Not for long. (Long—) I know better, Still I return. You make the lesson Impossible to learn. I know better, Still I give in. You barely begin And I’m already in. Oh There I go, There I go again. I know better. I let you win. (I know better.) Still I return. (I know better.) Never seem to learn. There I go— (there I go again) There I go— (there I go again) I know better. I let you win. There. There I go. I know better. (Better— better—)
