[Intro] I'm called to the stage so I could say goodbye My words stumbled on my tongue like they usually do From the look of it, no one had a clue Cause the speech wasn't for them β it was for you [Verse 1] You're maybe in a coffin, but my heart is in a casket I'm getting weak on my knees trying to mask it It's getting hard for me to hold my tears How can a person be there, suddenly they leave? New wounds β I have no clue how to heal Cause I usually leave them for you to weave You had me in the palm of your hands and still threw me away Don't go behind my back and tell em I'm insane You could've said it to my face and I'd accept it That's what you taught me anyways [Interlude] I chew on my tongue and bite down on my words Cause no mal intent is allowed in the house of the Lord I'd go to your mother seated second row And tell her, "May the next be better" I'd tell her, "Your daughter is blessed," and she'd give me hers And I pray to God she never knows the version of you that I got to know [Verse 2] Had to make it home and already I'm sitting on the edge of the bed Pulling out my diary and staring at the page Title it "List of the Things I Regret" It'll take an eternity to start writing Funny how your name made it there I know you said you're aiming for the summit But I didn't know it was like that [PreβChorus] You're good at twisting and editing narratives The way you tell it, how it goes in my head β They told me once she's buried, there is no way for you to dig her back Maybe it was a rushed decision, that's why it made me wish I was the one who's dead [Chorus] Your tombstone will carry your name You're buried but a coffin don't bury the shame I wish you well in hell Don't try to point fingers at me from there Ain't my fault you dug your grave with your own hands [Verse 3] I've missed breakfast, dinner, and lunch Had to fight off nightmares my dreamnet couldn't catch Had to listen to my mother tell me not all things last She told me, "I know you miss her, and I understand that." I'd look her in the eyes and say, "That was in the past." She'd look at me confused and see the panic in my gasp She'll connect the dots and ask me if we're no longer in talking terms I'll roll my eyes and tell her, "Please, Mom, can we not talk about her" [Verse 4] My brother comes to me and tells me there is someone downstairs I wonder who could it be? I see you standing down there You say you have something to say But I stop you: "Girl, I cannot communicate with the dead." You swallow and look down How shameless are you to come to my home and ask for what we had? It's my fault in the first place to make you feel like you can have it back I point you to the door and say I don't wanna see you anymore [Bridge] Then it hit me β how we made a home out of a house You tell me in the sake of what we had not to believe everything being said Now I'm watching its roof falling on your head [Chorus] The dead is dead, you have to get over it I'll promise you one thing β I'll put flowers on your tomb and pay respect While both of us know that you deserve none of it [Outro] Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, For it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. [end]
