My oh my

I’m in the same place I left me. The pain keeps me humble “My oh my, my oh my” Give me reason Just tell me why? I’m like an unopened gift Schrodinger shit! Exterior, pretty full of promise. Untouched on the shelf, I open it, find myself,feel ashamed, code named, James, not me, a shell, let’s play. “Who am I, who are you?” depends which day. One day good, next day never the same. Worn out over played, your socially unwelcome, I’ve over-stayed. Outcome Like a gift, can make you happy. It can still make you feel shit, like why the effort, “is that it” That’s it, that’s me, gift from god, jack of all trades master of gob, chatty, talks to much, bit of a knob, stays at home, he’s got a job, can’t leave the house, on benefits. “He’s a fraud, he’s on the rob” That’s mad to me, Worked every day that life’s given to thee. alright late, but I got there and measured machines, microns, inches, algebra, I learn it on the job, I take things to the extreme, I focus, locked in dreams. Dreams of me Dreams of Rome Building walls, But the bricks are stones, building roads, building homes. Crumbling,tumbling I fell, just short of the zone. Landed short, emergency, Crisis, confusing undertone, I want to be social “Just leave me alone” I wanna get out “I stay at home” I wanna be free “I’m just a loner” Blue balls boner, Let me text you Let me phone ya Let me speak My life Owner I feel empty, like printer, like toner, be the real me, let me show ya, I’m a toe rag. “Explain the stitching on my ball bag” I don’t mean to be rude didn’t mean to intrude Intrusive thoughts for me Intrusive speech for you Nothing to me Crude to you *pause* Moral of the story, life’s good, but in my head it’s boring. I’ve got clipped wings I’m falling, bottomless pit touring, V-A-R check what the score is, feels like seven nil, nah I’m losing, ain’t kept a clean sheet in ages, I break down, build up, step by step, stages by stages, baby steps, change of name-ziz. The bigger they come The bigger the fall The bigger the trigger The bigger the call The bigger the crisis I figure, I fall I didn’t, I flew I’m fitter, I’m tall Feel shitter, not cool Relax, chill out Hot tub, hot pool The Winner of life All in hand No probelem, no problem, At all “My oh my, my oh my”