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Verse 1 I told my mom I’m just exhausted Truth is, I don’t really know Why it feels like every morning Starts with twenty pounds of stone Everybody says I’m different Guess they’re finally catching on I’ve been answering with “I’m good” So long it almost sounds like—Gosh… My friends keep sending me invites I keep saying, “Maybe soon.” I’ve been hiding in my bedroom Watching daylight leave come and go. Pre-Chorus I don’t wanna scare anybody So I keep it light If I joke about it first Then maybe they’ll think I’m alright Chorus I’ve been living with the static Always humming in my head Even when the room is crowded I still rather feel alone I’m so tired of saying, “I’m okay.” Like it isn’t wearing through the paint I don’t need somebody to save me I just wish somebody knew my name… The one I keep from everybody. Verse 2 I miss the version of me that would laugh first Without having to fake the sound Now I celebrate the small things Just getting out, just driving around Everybody’s chasing something Money, love, another view I’m just trying to remember What it felt like to feel new Bridge Maybe healing isn’t lightning Maybe it’s a slower song Maybe it’s admitting out loud I’ve been carrying this too long If tomorrow looks the same again I’ll still wake up and try Maybe hope isn’t a feeling Maybe hope is just surviving one more night Final Chorus I’ve been living with the static Trying to turn the volume down Looking for a little peace In every highway out of town If I’m honest, I’ve been breaking In places no one ever sees But I still leave the front door open In case the better version finds me. Outro Some days I disappear. Some days I make it through. Today… I made it here. Maybe that’s enough to call it proof.