Strange Feeling

Everything's fine, everything's good, Coffee is hot, everything's understood, Nobody's dying, the sky isn't grey, So why do I feel like I'm slipping away? I'm fine, I'm fine, I swear that I'm fine, So why is there water collecting in my eyes? It's good, it's bad, it's both at once, Don't ask me why, I'm just fine, until I'm not. No reason at all, and that's the whole joke, My heart wants to laugh and cry with one stroke, My mind stands aside, just shrugging along, Watching me hum a happy sad song. I'm fine, I'm fine, I swear that I'm fine, So why is there water collecting in my eyes? It's good, it's bad, it's both at once, Don't ask me why, I'm just fine, until I'm not. I tell myself "come on, it's alright," And that makes it worse, somehow, every night, Because yes, it's alright, I know that it's true, So what do I do with a heart torn in two? Five minutes from now I'll be smiling again, I'll mean it, I'll feel it, and then, and then, I'll cry about nothing, no warning, no sign, If he should ask, he'd never understand. I'm fine, I'm fine, I swear that I'm fine, So why is there water collecting in my eyes? It's good, it's bad, it's both at once, Being a woman is the hardest, sweetest stunt.