02. I Know My Own Weight Now

Verse 1 I used to hold myself so lightly like I might disturb the room Like my presence was an imposition I had to justify too soon I kept my voice at half its volume I kept my body at the door — I have spent so long apologising for taking up the floor Pre-chorus But I have been in the fire I have been in the deep I have grown a root system through everything I couldn't keep And I have come back different — not louder, not proud — just certain just finally certain Chorus I know my own weight now I know what I displace I know the size of my own silence I know how much I take up in a space I know my own weight now I set it down with care I know my own weight now and I am not afraid to put it there Verse 2 The glass self tried to be invisible the feral self tried to consume And somewhere in between those two I found the shape of a room that fits me without adjusting — that holds me without strain I know my own weight now and I will not make myself small again Pre-chorus I have been in the fire I have been in the deep I have grown a root system through everything I couldn't keep And I have come back different — not louder, not proud — just certain just finally certain Chorus I know my own weight now I know what I displace I know the size of my own silence I know how much I take up in a space I know my own weight now I set it down with care I know my own weight now and I am not afraid to put it there Bridge (full orchestra, vocals at their most grounded) I am not the fracture I am not the fever I am not the feral thing that burned the lake to find me — I am what came through all of it and chose to stay Final Chorus I know my own weight now I know what I displace I know the size of my own silence I know how much I take up in a space I know my own weight now (slowing) I set it down with care — I know my own weight now and I am glad to put it there