I laughed too loud when you were quiet Spoke too fast when you should’ve said it Didn’t I? I pulled you close then stepped away Let the silence get its way Didn’t I? Am I the greatest bastard you ever let stay? The one who fucks you up then walks away? The one you can’t shake even when you try? We were fine before the lies got high Before we started counting all the whys You taught me how to breathe again How to look past where we’ve been Didn’t you? I wish I could say I did the same But I still carry all the blame Don’t I? Am I the worst mistake you can’t undo? The one you still run back to? Am I the one your heart keeps hiding for? Or am I just fucking wanting more? Some things hurt more when you want them more Some rush in, some pull back Some stay quiet, some attack I never meant to make this hard Some say it fine, some say it loud Some forget what they allowed I never meant to break your heart We learn to fall before we fly Learn to leave before we lie Don’t we? We learn that love ain’t always clean And we hold on when it’s mean Don’t we? Am I the greatest bastard you ever knew? When do we stop fighting what’s true? We tore it down just to build it higher But letting go ain’t the same As walking away when it rains So don’t act like you don’t see it Don’t pretend you never needed Don’t say it don’t burn too ’Cause I know it do I do
