🎙️ Verse 1 If I woulda known I was mentally ill Maybe you could’ve helped me find what’s real But I wore “I’m fine” like a badge on my chest While my soul was screaming, needing rest I was spiraling, smiling, dying inside Locked up in pain I didn’t recognize 🕊️ Chorus If I woulda known I was worse than I claimed Would you have stayed, or walked away the same? Now I’m wondering if it’s too late to fix You and me, and all the cracks we missed Can we go back to the way God meant for us to be? Before the meds, the cells, the tragedy 💭 Verse 2 I said things I didn’t mean, just to feel tough But truth is, I was scared and never enough I pushed you out, then begged you to stay Built a wall, then prayed it’d decay I was lost in the fog, couldn’t see the signs That love was the lifeline I left behind 🙏 Bridge (Spoken Word) I wasn’t fine. I was fractured. And now I see it clear— The meds weren’t weakness, they were mercy. The silence wasn’t peace, it was prison. And you… You were the flare I ignored While I claimed I was fireproof. 💔 Final Chorus (Reprise) If I woulda known I was worse than I seemed Would you have held me through the broken dream? Now I’m praying it’s not too late to see You and me, the way God meant it to be No more lies, no more pride, just truth and grace I’m ready to face what I couldn’t face 🌅 Outro So if you hear this, and you still believe There’s a version of us that can be redeemed Then maybe this song is the start of that plea To go back to the way God meant for us to be
