tho i welcome it

[intro] tho i welcome it no one seems to come to chastise me. i am the cat always landing on its feet in their eyes. to tell the truth; the thread exists to examine the same. [verse] to speak the truth; come out from under my own missteps, blaring my own forgetfulness, edged out. you never thought who ever thought i got so deep doing nothing [verse] i wouldn't be out of my mind doing nothing decision already made - only thing remaining then to find myself on the other end of it [verse] for a very long time i agonized i had botched the work set up so perfectly reflexively fed only to find the structure lacking to maintain the result [bridge] out of the ashes dissolved away macro dimensions connect and disperse digressing into me; this me this remnant of a fire immutable. [verse] and spiraling down yet i had the wherewithal to remember myself. that i would know the way there; recognize the signposts were i ever then graced to return [final bridge] lost but so much.. oooooh - i become nothing recognizable to myself. a fuel spent the substance could not be collected again. would not be collected again. [final verse] tricky shit and you might know petty me resolved along the way to forget but not wholly - i could not do that. [final line] just to the point where you mask that forgetfulness as life; as routine.