I dont say it right… i never really do… you catch me mid-thought like a wire half-cut firing in my chest i laugh when i shouldn’t... pull back when you touch... like i’m scared of being seen... i’ve been… living sideways just enough to get by you walk in like sunlight through blinds, i forgot to ever open wide and i hate that you notice the parts i keep dull but you don’t run when i come undone when i say too much or not enough you stay right there in the broken air like love doesn’t care how messed up i am yeah it’s ugly… but it’s real and somehow… you still feel... like home... i flinch at good things like they’re temporary like they’re gonna leave i’ve worn out apologies before anything breaks just to stay ahead of me you don’t fix it you don’t rush it you just sit in the mess it makes me wonder what it feels like to not second guess you’re not asking for perfect just something that’s real... and you don’t run when i come undone when i shake and crack under all of that you stay right there in the heavy air like love doesn’t scare easy anymore it’s not pretty… but it’s true i think… i’m starting to trust. you. i’ve been holding my breath so long i forgot what it sounds like to breathe and not brace... for impact maybe love isn’t clean maybe it’s this… staying anyway! so don’t run when i come undone i’m learning slow how to let you close stay right here through the static fear i’m not gonna disappear... not this time! yeah i’m shaking… but i’m still here and maybe… that’s what. love is. not perfect… just… staying…
