SUICIDAL [Intro] (Whispered) Yeah… (yeah…) Mm… (mmm…) I was sixteen… (oh…) Just a kid… (ooh…) ⸻ [Verse 1] Sixteen and pregnant, still a child inside… (hmm…) Looking at tomorrow with nowhere left to hide… (yeah…) I couldn’t bring a baby to the home of a monster… (no…) Every single heartbeat made me hold her just a little stronger… (ooh…) Knife against my throat, praying she’d never know… (oh God…) Thought if I disappeared she’d never have to grow… (mmm…) Inside a house where love was just another lie… (yeah…) Trying to save her before she’d even opened her eyes… (ooh…) He found me… stopped me… (why…?) Another failure carved into my skin… (hmm…) I couldn’t even give her… (oh…) The painless life I wanted to begin… (yeah…) ⸻ [Pre-Chorus] I was scared for her life… (her life…) Never scared for my own… (no…) I’d already disappeared… (gone…) Long before I’d ever gone… (ooh…) ⸻ [Chorus] Suicidal… (suicidal…) That’s the word they never heard… (they never heard…) Silent screams choking on every single word… (yeah…) Sitting in the corner wishing I could fade away… (fade away…) Begging for a morning where I didn’t have to stay… (ooh…) Every breath felt borrowed… (hmm…) Every night felt endless… (yeah…) Every mirror showed a girl who barely existed… (oh…) Self inflicted pain became my bestfriend… (my bestfriend…) I wanted to die… (no…) I just wanted it to end… (please…) ⸻ [Verse 2] Kicked in the stomach for falling asleep… (oh…) Because he needed something that he’d always choose over me… (yeah…) My body wasn’t mine, my voice was locked away… (hmm…) Bruises told the story I could never safely say… (ooh…) “If you leave, your family’s next.” (next…) Those words still echo in my chest… (yeah…) Every escape became another chain… (another chain…) Every road led right back into the pain… (pain…) Seventeen years old… walking through the night… (alone…) Trying just to breathe beneath the streetlight… (hmm…) Crying on the pavement, hoping I’d disappear… (oh…) Only to be found and dragged right back by fear… (yeah…) ⸻ [Bridge] I counted every goodbye before I’d even lived… (mmm…) I carried guilt for things I never did… (oh…) He told me to end it… (end it…) Sometimes I almost believed… (yeah…) But somewhere underneath the broken pieces… (ooh…) There was still a heartbeat refusing to leave… (still beating…) ⸻ [Final Chorus] Suicidal… (suicidal…) That’s how every morning felt… (every morning…) Holding shattered pieces of a life I’d never dealt… (yeah…) Living wasn’t living when survival was the goal… (hmm…) Just a frightened teenage girl trying to protect a soul… (ooh…) They can call me damaged, broken, scarred for life… (they don’t know…) But they don’t know the battles that I fought each night… (every night…) The girl they tried to bury still learned how to breathe… (I’m breathing…) And every step I’m taking now… (yeah…) Is something they could never steal from me… (never…) ⸻ [Outro] (Softly) You thought I’d become another name… (another name…) Another photograph… (hmm…) Another silence… (ooh…) But I’m still here… (I’m still here…) …And she got to live. (yeah…)
