Guardian of What We Were

[Verse 1] Steel in my shoulders Frost on my breath I count every heartbeat Like steps toward my death Coffee gone bitter Sunrise I don't see I polish my armor Where your hands used to be [Chorus] I'm a guardian of what we were Stone around a flicker Holding back the flood of us So it burns a little thicker Haunted and hardened I lock the door I keep the key I was made to stand my post You were made to ruin me [Verse 2] You with that ancient face Like temples in the dust Eyes like something older Than hunger Than trust You smile and the years fall Like snow from my hair But discipline is louder Than the way you say my name in the air [Chorus] [Bridge] I ration every laugh One shard of sugar on my tongue I fold away my wanting Like winter clothes Like songs unsung [low vocal register] If I let you in It all comes down It all comes true [whispered vocals] I'm not a dreamer So why do I still dream of you? [Chorus]