[Verse 1] I leave my coffee on the sink Ashes in a paper cup I say I'm fine, I never blink But everything inside is stuck I wear my shame like second skin Laugh it off before it shows If you knew where I've been You'd never let me get this close [Chorus] I burn the bridge while standing on it Say I'll change, then I don't I break my promises in silence Then wonder why I'm alone I'm a dirtbag, yeah, I know Dragging my past wherever I go I push you away, then beg you to stay I ruin the good things just to feel safe I'm a dirtbag, say it slow I hate the truth, but it's all I know If you love me, you'll get hurt Yeah, I'm a dirtbag, I'm the worst [Verse 2] I keep receipts of every fight Replay words like they're crimes I sleep with all the lights on Afraid of what I'll find I want forgiveness without the work A clean slate with dirty hands I act like I don't deserve anything that tries to understand I joke about my self-destruction Like it's cute or something fun But I'm choking on the damage From everything I've done [Chorus] I'm a dirtbag, it's true I don't know how to be good to you I flinch at love, I bite when touched I say forever, but it's never enough I'm a dirtbag, torn and bruised Still blaming the world for what I choose If you stay, you'll get hurt Yeah, I'm a dirtbag, I'm the worst [Bridge] I don't need saving I need to stop running I don't need pity, just a little honesty If I ever change, it won't be tonight But I swear I'm trying Even if it doesn't look right [Chorus] I'm a dirtbag, scars on display Trying to learn how not to decay I'll mess it up, then I'll break down But I'm still standing on shaking ground I'm a dirtbag, still breathing somehow Still hoping I can turn it around If you leave, I understand But if you stay, take my hand Take my hand I'm a dirtbag, but I'm still here [Outro] Here Here
