Woke up with dust in my teeth again Same old fight with my own best friend One half says “hold the line” Other half’s pourin’ gasoline on time Got a clean shirt got a dirty mind Tryna walk straight but I’m fallin’ behind Every rule feels like a chain I made Every promise starts to rust and fade And I know, I know, I know what I should be But there’s a war going on inside of me I’m pushin’ this stone up a breakin’ hill Call it curse, call it free will One hand holy, one hand flame Two different heads, same damn snake I wanna build it up, I wanna burn it down Hear the silence in the wrecking sound If this is hell then I’ll learn the way To be Sisyphus and smile today Got a sermon stuck in my bones at night But the devil talks like he might be right Says “man wasn’t made to behave this way” Says “let it all just slip away” But I see light in the labor pain Every loss is just another chain That I drag up just to watch it fall And still I answer the same damn call And I know, I know, I know it won’t end clean But I like the war inside just can't be seen Maybe discipline is just controlled decay Maybe freedom is the price I pay For wanting both the cage and the key For wanting peace and catastrophe I’m pushin’ this stone up a breakin’ hill Call it curse, call it free will I light the match, then I guard the flame Both salvation and the blame I wanna build it up, I wanna burn it down Same white noise, different sound If this is war then I’ll stay and stay And be like Sisyphus, happy anyway
