Withdrawal [Cold Open / Hook] I don’t want you back I just want the shaking to stop I don’t miss your love I miss who I was when I thought I had it I blocked your number Then stared at the wall Like a junkie with pride And no dealer to call [Verse 1] I washed your smell out my hoodie Then cried in the dryer heat Sat on the bathroom tile With your ghost in my teeth I keep saying I’m better Like lying is proof But I still check my phone Like it owes me you My friends say I escaped Like that makes it clean But nobody tells you freedom Can still fucking bleed [Pre-Chorus] And I hate that I miss it The hurt and the high Your hands were a house fire But they kept me alive [Chorus] I’m in withdrawal from someone Who treated me like shit I keep calling it healing But I’m sick from it I don’t want the poison I just want the cure I don’t want your body I want mine back for sure I’m in withdrawal from loving you And God, it’s fucking mean To survive what almost killed me And still want it in my bloodstream [Verse 2] I sleep with the TV on So the room doesn’t know There’s a me before you That I can’t get close to I eat like a stranger I laugh when I should I keep touching my chest Like my heart’s still good Some nights I forgive you Some nights I rot Some nights I’d sell my soul For one lie that felt soft [Bridge / Breakdown] Don’t text me Don’t haunt me Don’t ask if I’m okay Don’t say you still love me Just because your bed feels strange I am trying to get clean From the worst thing I needed You were never my home You were just where I bled [Final Chorus] I’m in withdrawal from someone Who treated me like shit I keep calling it healing But I’m sick from it I don’t want the poison I just want the cure I don’t want your body I want mine back for sure I’m in withdrawal from loving you And God, it’s fucking mean To survive what almost killed me And still want it in my bloodstream [Outro] I don’t want you back I just want the shaking to stop I don’t miss your love I miss who I was when I thought I had it.
