[Intro] Pitch black in the night not a cloud in the sky let Buddha out his cage stars pulsing high Orion above guiding my internal eye half lotus in the dirt let my consciousness rise [Verse 1] Half lotus in the dirt letting my consciousness soar rooted to the earth heart feeling lighter than before I was uneasy in the brain till I finally came outside connected the earth with my soul nature breathing me in no longer feeling insane Why was I being so resistant before? I don't fucking know Do I like being in pain? Without it would I even be the same? If I wasn't inhabiting a vessel guided by pressure and pain? Moon in the night sky light behind my closed eyes sitting in the dirt with my dog by my side Not a cloud in the sky reflecting how I now feel inside [Chorus 1] Bong water on my lips dabs on my breath exhaling the Void with every breath that's left Half lotus in the dirt coming to terms with the grief in me breathing with the night taking in the greenery Bong water on my lips dabs on my breath I came outside carrying everything I couldn't put to rest Exhaling the Void letting some of it leave stars above my head dirt underneath my feet [Verse 2] Broke focus threw the ball across the yard to the other side Good boy took him a while to find it I never turned the lights on Heart calmly beats dog walks by guarding me while I drift peacefully Sitting in a garden full of beasts nothing asking me to explain nothing asking for a reason nothing running every frame Just paws moving through the darkness wind moving through the trees stars moving where they always move and dirt underneath my knees For once I'm not trying to make the feeling disappear I'm just sitting where I am letting everything be here [Chorus 2] Bong water on my lips dabs on my breath exhaling the Void with every breath that's left Half lotus in the dirt coming to terms with the grief in me cosmic images behind my eyes pulsing to the beat Bong water on my lips dabs on my breath not trying to outrun the feeling not asking what's coming next Exhaling the Void while the night breathes into me rooted to this little patch of dirt surrounded by greenery [Verse 3] Stars in the sky cosmic images behind my eyes pulsing to the beat letting time pass by Hoping the relief finally lasts But it won't And somehow that doesn't hit as hard as it would've before I know the clouds return I know the pressure comes again I know some nights I'll find the floor and have to start from where I am Maybe peace was never something I was supposed to trap and hold maybe it's something that I visit when I finally let things go No promise for tomorrow no permanent release just tonight beneath the stars with a little room to breathe [Chorus 3] Bong water on my lips dabs on my breath exhaling the Void nothing left to second-guess Half lotus in the dirt coming to terms with the grief in me I don't need it gone forever just enough space to breathe Bong water on my lips dabs on my breath the night didn't fix tomorrow it just gave me somewhere to rest Exhaling the Void while the stars keep watching me nothing conquered nothing cured just quieter underneath [Bridge] Why was I resisting? I still don't fucking know Maybe I got used to pressure maybe pain became the road maybe carrying it so long made the weight feel like my own But I don't have to solve it sitting underneath this sky Buddha walking through the darkness Orion burning high Moonlight behind my eyelids heartbeat underneath garden full of beasts around me nothing here but breath and peace [Final Chorus] Bong water on my lips dabs on my breath exhaling the Void till there's nothing left to press Half lotus in the dirt taking in the greenery stars across the sky while the earth holds onto me Bong water on my lips dabs on my breath hoping that the relief will last knowing what comes next It won't last forever and maybe it doesn't need to Tomorrow's schedule is already planned I know exactly what I'll do [Outro] When the pressure comes again when the noise fills up my head when the quiet disappears and the sky turns heavy instead I'll let Buddha out his cage walk barefoot across the land No answers promised no enlightenment planned Just the stars just the dirt just the night just where I am Tomorrow I'll be half lotus on my small plot of land Exhaling the Void and starting again.
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