Original Audio Upload: https://suno.com/s/pYr6UONvwk53bzo —— Kind of a more personal and somber tune. Used an original piano audio upload. I chose a female voice for this song because it seemed to fit my vision better. ------- Preface: I wrote this about my friend who used to cut themself with razors to deal with their anxiety and depression. They said the physical pain helped to dull the other pain. I've lost touch with them over the years. I hope they are doing much better now... If not, my heart aches for them. I truly love/loved them. They were extremely talented and creative. I really admired them for so many different things. Anyway. Enjoy 😢 —— Anticipation the chatter in my teeth the flushed red color from the blood that flows beneath Exhilaration as it drags across the skin the wince from sudden pain as you feel it sliding in It’s not for love, it’s not for show it’s just the only way I know to hush the noise behind my eyes and blur the edge of paradise It isn’t love, but it’s enough forbidden kiss, this kind of rough This secret truth they never see Still feel the heat inside of me An Old Sensation Like an echo in the night each thrust a buried secret etched beneath the bite Recollection remembered taste of sin my breath now baited shallow new warm upon my skin It’s not for love, it’s not for show it’s just the only way I know to hush the noise behind my eyes and blur the edge of paradise It isn’t love, but it’s enough forbidden kiss, this kind of rough This secret truth they never see Still feel the heat inside of me But when that rush begins to fade and all that's left is what was made I trace the lines I swore I’d hide and wipe the tears until they’ve dried it’s too late now, what’s done is done it hurts so bad my pain is numb I crawl inside this Hell I’ve made and choke the urge to ask for aid It isn’t love, but it’s enough forbidden kiss, this kind of rough This secret truth they never see Still feel the heat inside of me Anticipation the chatter in my teeth the flushed red color from the blood that flows beneath
